Hi Miranda, I also felt exactly the same, I couldn’t keep up and it was part of the reason I stepped back and slipped up. Please dont feel that way, seems we’re not alone. I want you here, and as I know now, I won’t be able to reply to everyone, and it’s okay. 
The quote below is from @Miranda, when I posted I was overwhelmed trying to keep up. Not sure how I screwed up trying to copy a quote, but to do it was stressful in its self 