Day 1. Again. Starting over after giving up so many times

I’m very sad today. My head hurts a lot, and I feel ashamed and lonely. Today, like every day, I said never again. I’m afraid it’ll be another day when I won’t be able to handle it by nightfall and relapse.

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Yesterday I was in your exact same position. The feeling of guilt, shame, embarrassment, anger. Ah these emotions can be so destructive but they can be harnessed for good too. Don’t fight them, use them to heal, to get better. Relapses are ok, there’s not a single one of us here who here who hasn’t relapsed otherwise we wouldn’t have an addiction.

I feel your pain, use it to get better. I know you’ve got this :flexed_biceps::flexed_biceps:

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Welcome to a wonderful sober community. Do you have a plan? How about a meeting like AA? So many resources to help you stay sober and be happy about your decision. Read around here as much as possible and find your connection. I am glad you are here.

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Welcome Vickie
That’s how I felt my last morning hungover. I thought :thinking: there’s got to be an app for this. And I found this group of people that helped support me through some tough times by just being here for me. Have a good read around join in when you’re comfortable. We’ve all been where you are.

It took me a good support group and lots of knowledge to get sober. And it’s my best life.
I hope to see you around.
:folded_hands::heart:

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Heyy Vicky
:slight_smile:

You need to reach out to another alcoholic and express the feeling. I would say another female but it’s up to you.

Express why you feel these emotions

Pick someone who has a lot of sobriety time

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You mean someone in this group?
I don’t know any other alcoholic..

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Try an online meeting - there are hundreds of meetings, basically 24 hours a day, there’s probably one starting in just a few minutes:

Be brave. You don’t have to share if you don’t want to, you can just listen. It is reassuring (to me at least) to hear people share about the same problem I have :innocent:

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Actually technically it could be anybody

If you’d like I can listen to you
I can send you a message. :slight_smile:

I’m a 35 year old guy though
You might feel comfortable with another female

The thing is don’t drink no matter what
Your drinking masked the way you feel. Your coping skill of drinking is gone

You can even journal about it instead of reaching out

The thing is
Be a good person
Don’t drink

:slight_smile:

I have 2 years without a drink and 8months no pot I dabbled with hard drugs but never liked it.

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And yes these online AA meetings are life saving for me also

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thank you :light_blue_heart:

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When I really wanted to stay sober I went back to the rooms; Online NA for me, I have relapsed many times. I hung on to alcohol in the back of my mind when I didn’t go back to the rooms, and tried to do it with just this app- that never worked long term and always gave the drink another go till I was absolutely done in emotionally and spiritually so I jumped into online meetings ; 5 times a day in the first week. It’s hard to admit to myself I’m an addict / alcoholic and by accepting this fact, we can recover :heart_hands:t3:

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