Welcome Rick.
Congratulations on being sober today.
I love counting my days on here. But today is the most import day for me and my sobriety. It was so hard at the beginning. I found this app January 2 2020. And I haven’t had a drink since.
I was 60 years old. And fat drunk and hungover was no way to enter my bronze years. My wife and I drank our first 38 years together. We drank a shitload together. Especially in our early retirement. I hid this app from her the first week, because I knew she didn’t want to quit drinking. I just couldn’t take it anymore. Everything was about where my next drink is going to be. Stocking up on cases of wine and booze for the week. Oh the hangovers were killing me. I’d have these crushing hangovers at 3 am in the shower because I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t want to talk to my kids because I was afraid I might be too drunk. Imagine that. Not talking to your children because of booze. Anyway. My wife still doesn’t want to stop drinking. “She likes it.” Alcoholism has killed off all her family. I’m powerless over her drinking. Totally powerless. I’m powerless over my drinking. I CANNOT CONTROL IT. I’ve never in my life had just one. I was special. I had to drink more than everyone else. Or I wasn’t drinking enough. Anyway. You get the idea.
I started on here just listing all the things I’m grateful for. EVERY MORNING. gratitude is my most powerful tool in my tool box.
I’ve done my gratitude list here 872 days in a row.
After awhile, and doing a lot of reading on here and getting comfortable I started joining in on some of the other threads that interested me.
This is a great place for support.
We got your back if you let us.
I’m not drinking today.
And I’m probably not drinking tomorrow.
That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
Oh. And I can talk to my children now 24/7. How grateful is that?
