Hey all, today I am a day and half in. I would like to start a daily log, just to help me kinda track how things are going, and say something about my day - What I did or whatever, as I search for new hobbies and interests besides spending hours at the bar. Feel free to ignore this! Lol. Some days I will be detailed, some not.
So, yesterday - day 0- I worked in the morning, then had a job interview at Findlay market (It’s kind of an open air market with some store fronts and whatnot that we have here) for a bbq place there. I got it! He said I seemed personable, which was nice. We did the interview in the outdoor dining area/beirgarten in front of the restaurant and the guy tending the bar asked me if I got it as I walked away, then congratulated me. Then I did a bit of grocery shopping, since I was down there. Ran into a couple friends. Came home and texted my boss because the apartment I applied for wants him to write a letter for me, he said he would. Made myself cheesy rice with bacon & tomatoes for dinner and cleaned the kitchen. I read and played games on my phone and went to bed.
Today is day one! I ate leftover rice for breakfast and puttered around the garden a bit, let my dog play in the yard, did the dishes. It was nice to wake up feeling rested and good (besides the usual achy back lol). I made a Pinterest board this afternoom, about hobbies and activities for sobriety. I start my new job at 10am. If anyone asks me about drinking it is a new social situation so I can just say, “Oh, I don’t drink.” I ended up going with a friend to get new brake pads with my bike, then hung out with my two friends and ordered Indian food to their house. Now in bed, I am going to wake up early and well rested!
I would love to hear about what anyone else is up to!
The job went great! They seemed to like me, the food is amazing, it’s really laid back. I think it will be a very nice change of pace for me. Plus it is in the local open market, so it’s a really fun location.
Congrats on the job! Sounds like it’s a great place, I would love it there!
I have been thinking about starting a journal type log on here as well. I’ve been keeping a paper one but this might be a little easier!
My day today was mixed… I had to reset my timer after only 7 days (almost) which was frustrating and brought forth a whole array of emotions. But as the day has progressed I have chosen to take a hold of whatever positivity I can find in it and move ahead with more determination and strength this time around!
Other than that… I dropped my kids off at their grandparents, had a meeting at the bank to look at restructuring my mortgage, had a nap, had a bath and now I’m going to start to make dinner!
I hope you have a great night and I’ll be watching for your updates!!
I’m sorry to hear about the reset, I have so many times, but I know each time I learned what helped and what didn’t and I would recognize my excuses for what they are. One day at a time, we got this! I think I partially decided to do this because it will give me some accountability to y’all, and I can track my own growth as I figure out who sober me is. It also motivates me to do things that i can write about! Lol. I want to take a nap so bad, I’m trying to kinda reset my habits in a broader way by getting up earlier. A total lifestyle overhaul, if you will. I got up an hour earlier than I needed to today, it was nice once I actually got out of bed. It sounds like you had a productive day!
I think the accountability part of it appeals to me as well, plus it’s reason to be on the app every day!
The nap was pretty good I don’t normally nap but it was a late, terrible night lastnight.
I love the total lifestyle overhaul. That was something that I mentioned to my husband today actually! The structure of my entire life needs to change. The kids go back to school next week and I want to start getting up about an hour and a half earlier than them. I would like to hit my treadmill for 30-45 minutes and then enjoy a coffee in peace and quiet before starting their breakfast. But… that means I will be getting up at 5:30am So for now I will get up at 6, have a coffee, start their breakfast and get them up and out the door. Then do my treadmill lol. I also would like to start taking an online course. Nothing major but just something that I’m interested in and something to focus on. Little goals you know?
Today is day 2. I haven’t gotten past 4 in a long time, but my birthday was Monday and I am 27 and I just got out of a relationship with an alcoholic (a week ago tomorrow) who saw no need to change and I see so many friends just wasting their lives away. I am really determined this time. Idk. It feels right this time.
That’s fantastic!! You can get past that hurdle! I am filled with determination as well, this is it! I’m 34, I have two small kids and I want to be able to be present for them. Not to mention rebuilding my relationship with my husband.
Lol I updated my post because as soon as I sent it I remembered that you said how many days you had.
Day 2! (I adjusted things to reflect complete days, so today I am working towards day 3, nut have 2 complete days)
Today I made myself get up early at 7:45. I made a nice breakfast and let my dog out, did dishes, then took a shower. I left early enough to get a coffee, then I was almost late to my first day at my new job because the bus was running late. I worked, then afterwards found some cherries and lemons on sale and bought a chicken thigh to use to make fajitas tomorrow. When I got home I could not stop snacking. I ate all the cherries, some cheese, and leftover Indian food. Tidied up the kitchen, let the dogs run around outside, drank a bunch of sweet tea, and played on my phone for a bit while laying in bed. Then I fell asleep for two hours, woke up, ate the rest of the leftover Indian food, some grape tomatoes, and sauteed veggies with bacon. I was ravenous. I think it is a detox symptom. I made my self a cup of herbal bed time tea with lemon and local honey and am now curled up in bed about to read for a half hour until I go to sleep at midnight. If i make it that long. I am trying to sleep at midnight every night, then wake up at 8 every morning. Eventually I want to do 11:30 but that will have to wait, baby steps. Midnight is gonna be a tough adjustment as is, compared to being out every night until 3am. I am definitely experiencing symptoms of detox: extreme tension in my neck, increased appetite, and exhaustion. I am hoping once I begin to get my energy back to start working out several times a week and focus on my nutrition more, but right now I feel like I should let my body do what it needs to do… not drink.
Im the same at the moment. It’s day four for me being sober. So all I want to do is sleep. Walk the dog when I get a burst of energy go see my psych and that’s about it. But know it gets better and every day you can do a little bit more. Go at your own pace. That’s what I’m trying to do, listen to your gut.
I know I must sound crazy! I’ve been waking up at 430-445am and hitting the gym by 530am. Walking into work right at 745am. Ive found if I don’t do my workouts before work, I’ll blow off my workouts after work. The only drawback to that, is I’m in bed between 9-10pm. Such an early bedtime makes me feel old, perhaps I am old…
Insanely, 2 months ago, 430am was my bedtime.
I do so much better mentally, when I have goals and an habitual routine. I focus on my next objective. This seems to keep me calm and erase all my anxiety.
Omg guys I basically went to bed at 9pm then slept until 11am. I had an alarm set for 8 but i guess i ignored it. Good thing it is my day off!
That sounds like you had a fantastic rest!! Your body totally needed it I’m sure!! Hope you have a great day off today let us know what you get up to!
I’m heading into the city right away to pick up some things for my daughters birthday party tomorrow. ️
Awww. How old?
She turned 7 and my son is 5 and 1/2
The guy at the bar probably wants to date you really hard. No guy randonly congratulates a stranger unless he wants to date them all night long. My 2c.
Lol. No, it’s just the environment of the market. He was a grandfatherly type of guy and was working… I have plenty of experience with creepy old men, trust me!
Day 3!
I woke up at 11 today… whoops! So much for the getting up early. I slept 14 hours last night tho, so I must have needed it. I had really vivid dreams, and woke up sore. Once I move I think im going to get a new mattress. Woke up, had breakfast, tidied up a bit, did some journaling - I am doing a 30 day challenge with prompts on gratitude. My dog got annoyed that I wasn’t paying attention to her so she peed on my bed. I was soooo mad. So I washed my sheets (I guess I needed to any way?) And scrubbed the mattress. I got the smell out but now my bed smells like vinegar! Better than the alternative. Then I met up with a friend at the park for a doggie playdate! It was fun catching up with her, I haven’t seen her in forever. She is pretty introverted so bars and things aren’t really her scene. Came home and took a 2 hour nap, then my friend was having a get together for her 4 year anniversary of sobriety from heroin (she is 3 1/2 months off alcohol). We ate Chinese and played card games. It was fun. Getting to bed an hour later than I intended cause of that, but I am now curled up with my sleepy tea. Feeling some withdrawl effects (tiredness and snackiness) but definitely feeling good and strong. Hope everyone else had a good day and here’s to day 4!
Sounds like a pretty good day aside from the dog mess!! Wonderful that you got to catch up with an old friend!! Hope you have a good rest tonight.
I just finished making the cupcakes for my daughters birthday tomorrow. I made myself a tea and am watching Criminal Minds with my hubby and am going to sleep very soon!
Here’s to another hangover free morning and another sober clear headed day tomorrow!
Oooh. I love criminal minds. I hope you all had a blast celebrating your daughter today!
Day 4
Today was probably the hardest so far. I worked, and it was just a crap shift. Needy tables, who I worked my rear off for and they were garbage tippers. I think my boss and I are coming to an understanding, though. I think it’s just cause he has worked with me and seen that I work hard, rather than all the things one of the women has been saying behind my back. After such a long and frustrating shift, when I was already very anxious as it was, I just wanted to fall on old habits and grab a drink when I got off at 5:30. “Relax” after a hard day. I wanted to really bad. I didn’t, though. I walked around downtown a bit, took a bus home. Sat around on the forum, played with my dog, drank tea, did my gratitude writing, then made some reallllyyyy yummy fajitas, and listened to a podcast (they help occupy my mind so i am not thinking so much) and did dishes. I got through all that stress and anxiety. Me. By myself.
I am really proud of myself today. I’ve never made it past day 4 and here I am, going strong. I just read a bit in bed and drank my tea and here’s to day 5 and waking up rested and sober!