Hi Melissa,
I’m sorry about the relapse, I know they can drain you out. I had a couple of them in the beginning of my sobriaty and even one after 5 years of sobertime.
What has helped me was making a plan, I called it my sober plan. It gave me hands and feet on my recovery so to speak.
I will share it with you so you can check it out. Maybe you see something that can be of use for you too:2 years sober and what helped me to get there: I’m sober still. Sober for 5 years and 5 months now with the help of this app.
Welcome to this awesome sober tribe! 
We are here for you!
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