It feels like I’ve lost my tolerance to properly deal with my problems. Instead I keep trying to convince myself that I don’t care… just booze it up. I solely rely on drinking for sleep… couldn’t tell you the last time I fell asleep sober. I’m starting to experience serious withdrawals from my flared up anxiety to my body shaking uncontrollably. I desperately need help, guidance, support… SOMETHING. I know I’m better than this addiction… any kind of insight would be so greatly appreciated
Why not seek medical treatment? Withdrawals can lead to seizures. Consider going to the ER, your primary doctor or rehab. There’s no shame in asking for help. I personally went to an outpatient detox and it was the best decision I made.
I’m certainly not opposed to educating myself with options, however trying to balance a full time job and household is my main concern… what can I do that won’t keep me from my day to day life?
I was able to balance a full-time job, household and caring for a disabled child all while getting sober. It can be done if you want it bad enough.
Edit… meetings are available online at all hours of the day and night. Here’s a link. Online meeting resources
I personally use the following on those days I can’t get to in person meetings:
Drink two pints of water and download This Naked Mind onto your kindle or as an audio book. It’s a way in which doesn’t remove you from your home.
You are absolutely amazing for recognising what’s going on and yes you are so so much better than this addiction! Well done for reaching out… I know you want things to change and you want that self control back, It will come back! Prayers for you to experience your chains loosening, encounter clarity & anxiety to diminish - enabling you to deal with life’s challenges, thinking of you
Maybe try a meeting might help wish you well
Looking at it another way, continuing to drink is a surefire way to be kept from our day to day life, possibly for good.
I thought I had things pretty well under control while drinking, they were just a little chaotic, that’s all. As I worked on my recovery I found because of my drinking, I had been much, much closer to losing my job and loved ones than I realized. Thankfully for me it wasn’t too late.
Putting my sobriety first, so many things rapidly improved. It really is worth it.
Out patient isn’t a bad idea for managing the jitters and such. Doctors can help. As for the anxiety, support groups can help a lot. We don’t have to do it alone.
Good news is if we make this our last quit, we don’t have to go through the worst bits ever again!