Sugar for me is just like alcohol. I can’t have a little here and there. Same with certain snacks. They are triggers for binge eating and as much as I tried to eat these kinds of food in moderation because I felt I should be able to control myself, I just can’t! If I don’t start I don’t have the ability to binge. Acceptance that I’m not like others with sugar or snacks I guess makes things better. I still have other “unhealthy” things I will eat, that I don’t binge on… this is where I’ve found balance. Still struggle on and off, more so with the shame of eating just a normal amount of calories. It’s really crazy tbh!!
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Food is such a difficult addiction to have. I need to start paying attention to which snacks send me into a frenzy.
I’m also a late night binger. If I stay up after my bedtime, I’m inevitably in the kitchen foraging for ‘something easy’ and its never fruit or carrots. I know that staying up past my bedtime is a trigger to binge eating.
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I relate to this, so much! I feel the same. I had to reset the counter already today, so still on Day 0 
i don’t have good routine around food / meal times and this is a big part of why I keep going back and eating more sugar. I need to be more prepared and commited, long term; accepting that it really is all or nothing with me when it comes to addictive substances - in this case sugar & processed food. There is no just having “a little bit”. I also need to just somehow get through the initial couple weeks of cravings and then I know it will get easier! But the cravings in the first few days are INSANE and my mind starts to come up with all types of reasons and excuses as to why I should, need to and/or will have some crappy junk food full of sugar. I seem to operate in cycles too, where it comes a time every few weeks where I just ‘give up’ so to speak and succumb to my cravings and addiction (sugar) and it’s almost like there’s nothing I can do - the trajectory is set and I am on it, no turning back 
it all seems too hard.
Thanks for the link above, Lea. And thanks @mleclaire for your offer too. I haven’t tried WW or any other program as such, as my issue is not to do with weight… I’m lucky enough, despite my sugar addiction, to have a lean body size, but how it looks doesn’t matter when it doesn’t feel good or healthy. I wish I could just apply what I know and have learnt having quit alcohol and cigarettes to this, but it seems at this point, I’m unable… I have reset hundreds of times now, learning the same lessons over and over and I still do the same actions 
it’s fkg frustrating and it’s me, I’M the one choosing these actions,making these decisions daily. I need to use some frikin self-discipline. I’m tired of my own shit.
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Ha! Same. 
when I was young I suffered from hypoglycemia, so I quit eating sweets. Didn’t have any until I got pregnant like 8 years later. Then I ate ice cream and brownies every day. Then it wasn’t so bad again for a few years, but I was drinking so much I got plenty of unnecessary sugar in my system.
And I laugh because in early sobriety the ’ grab a piece of candy instead of a drink’ advice people throw out probably didn’t help me at all because in my mind I kept thinking ‘at least it’s not alcohol.’
I’ve considered over eaters anonymous meetings.
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It may be a good idea to find some help in walking that fine line, especially with that history. I am considering doing the same. No shame in needing help to navigate what is safe and appropriate.
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Feeling defeated. Struggling. So so frustrated, tired and fed up… as well as really sad.
I’ve been praying, but then, I ignore all the help and signs. I’m my own worst enemy. I’m lacking confidence and self-love in this respect. It’s really hard too, because I can so readily and loving help others, but I cannot seem to help myself. Self-sabotage is an understatement at this point
It’s taken a new level now, with self-induced vomiting becoming.
Dear God, please help me.
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This is such a lonely feeling. I don’t know if it seems that way to you, but it does to me
Imagine if there were a group of people, a community, who each had that instinct to care for the other? I wonder what that would be like. 