Done hurting myself and others

Hello I’m Crystal and i am an addict. My addictions are love and sex. I thought over the years that it wasn’t a problem. I’ve been a private person for so long, that when someone actually wanted to know about my life, i was tounge tied. Ive put on this front for so long and i wasnt sure what to say. Needless to say It ruined my relationship. I had to actually think about my past in depth. It made me sick to my stomach knowing the pain I’ve caused. I realize that I’ve hurt a lot of people that didn’t deserve it. I no longer want to hurt myself or anyone else.

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Hey crystal welcome to the community. There’s a lot of people on here dealing with the same things you are. Unfortunately most of have hurt people we care about and didn’t deserve it, because of one addiction or another. They’re all the same at that point. Glad you’re here

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Welcome Crystal, glad you’re here. Any ideas on how to do life differently? Considered therapy or support groups other than online?
I had to change pretty much everything to get to the land of happy and healthy.

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Thank you, I’m really struggling with finding support. I’m hoping this will help along the way.

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I started doing online meetings. I’m looking for a sponsor. My area doesn’t have local meetings for what i need. I’m also looking for a new therapist

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Welcome to the community, it’s nice to have you with us :raising_hand_woman:
This is a really supportive place :slightly_smiling_face:

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Thank you i could really use it

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Alot of us check in here daily

It’s a good place to meet more of us :slightly_smiling_face:
Keep reaching out, and they also is lots to read you can use the search bar and plenty will come up.

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Thank you so much🙂

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Welcome Crystal. Hope you can find some support here.

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Welcome Crystal!

My main addiction is alcohol today, but I am seriously addicted to love and sex, toxic relationships and codependency too. In earlier days I was addicted to weed and several party drugs. Sideway addictions are ED and sports.

You are not alone. Reach out here whenever you need help! There is always someone available.

I am searching for a CoDA group or something like that soon, but it’s difficult to find some live meeting in germany. So I am searching for a fix online meeting that fits in my schedule.

Where are you from?
Glad that you joyned the community!

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Thank you so much. I am in the US.

I found a site called www.intherooms.com
There are meetings for all types of addictions including, CODA, SAA, and, SLAA. I started there this past Friday. It has been so helpful all weekend. Even going into other meetings to listen has been a huge help.

This is my first attempt at really reaching out for the help i need but I’m so tired… things have to change. I will continue to visit here to both give and get support.

Thank you again

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There are some people with similar our issues, that may chime in when they log on. I hope you can find a meeting and sponsor that fits you.

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Thank you!