My dreams are disheartening lately. I’m over a hundred days sober and I see the benefits in my life when I don’t drink and my dreams are a reminder…
My dreams usually are about getting extremely drunk and then blacking out in the dream. It’s really weird to blackout in a dream. Shocker! I do the same thing in real life if I would drink again! I ask for forgiveness and ask people if you should apologize to anyone…
I wake up from these dreams full of guilt. Sometimes it feels very real. It’s weird though, I never know what I’m drinking. I don’t even have the act of drinking something or feeling drunk. The act of blacking out is always the importance in the dream. The best way to describe every dream is basically the same feeling you have waking up the next day from drinking way too much and you either feel hazy or there’s some memory lost. Just absolute guilt!
Anyone else experienced this early in recovery? Does this go away? Are these healthy reminders to keep me from drinking again?
I have had a few of them. Sometimes a dream is nothing more than your brain showing you what you have been concentrating on…nothing to worry about
I had a dream about drinking and the next day I had a conference where there was tons of drinking going on right after it for the rest of the evening. I think it was my subconscious telling me exactly what I needed to know, I felt terrible thinking I had drank so I knew I didn’t want to and said no way and headed home right after. I’m on day 33. You’ve got this!
Maybe it’s worth being grateful for those wacky dreams. You wake up – it was horrible! – and yet, you are free! Nothing bad really happened, no-one got hurt, and you can breath a sigh of relief. whew And remember what burdens actual drinking heaps on your head.
Yeah, I’ve had some weird ones too, had one recently where I was in Korea with my grandpa and we both ended up in a field hospital. I started looking around and realized the guys in the other beds were friends and acquaintances that have died from overdoses and the nurses were walking down the line handing out needles and whiskey. To put that in perspective: my grandpa died when my mom was pregnant with me and I’m only 33 so my knowledge of the Korean war is based on pictures I’ve seen in books and MASH lol. Just this morning the alarm clock went off and I really didn’t want to get up so i hit the snooze button and in that 10 minute span i fell back asleep and I was standing in front of the beer cooler telling myself I was looking for the non alcoholic stuff, but i grabbed what i usually drank, cracked one open and started drinking it right there in the store. I woke up ina panic and ashamed thinking I had relapsed. The mind is a powerful thing, especially the subconscious…when u cross into the dreamscape it can get up to some real mischevious stuff!