Day 6 disordered eating free. Checking in and sending positive thoughts and virtual hugs to all!
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Checking in here.
I have had disordered eating since I was 14. Mainly b/p but periods of restriction as well. It has always been the pattern that either alcohol/drugs, or my ED, have been more prominent and this has cycled on and on over the years.
I am happy to say though, that 51 days into sobriety from alcohol, I have only had a handful of bad eating days. This is SUCH a huge change from my m.o.
I think what has helped is Iāve purposefully stopped tracking my calorie intake on my fitbit app. I recognise that this either encourages me to keep the numbers low, or gives me a fā it mentality if I see the numbers are already above my comfort zone, so Iāll just inhale food and, well, you know.
I canāt say Iām feeling comfortable about food all the time, but I am practicing gratitude and meditation and I really think this is helping me to have a new appreciation for what I have, and is stopping me from getting into that dissociative state where I will b/p.
It is small steps, but Iām proud of myself and just wanted to share it here.
I hope everyone here is having a good day.
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One week no disordered eating 
super motivated to.keep this going. Hugs and good thoughts to everyone, stay strong 
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Good job Jenny, keep it up! 
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Yesterday and today I have been feeling the effects of having gluten.
And yet,
I seem to have just run towards it.
I had a grilled cheese sandwich yesterday, and some white castle sliders today.
I have been giving in to cravings for ācomfort foodā or quick food, or āI donāt have energy to cookā food.
I am frustrated with myself for it. Tomorrow is another day to choose health over convenienceā¦ hopefully I can stick to rice and veggies
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8 days disordered eating free, need to hit the shops today, so will be calling on my higher power to get me through temptations. Have a great day everyone 
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Great work, well done on 1 week 
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Thank you!
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Struggling a bit today. Itās so strange how your eyes can see one thing but you know in your logical brain itās not true. Body dysmorphia sux! I am using all my tools today to remain present and sober. Hugs to all!
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Congrats on 2 weeks!
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Thank you so much!
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Yes, congratulations on 2 weeks! Thatās great, keep it up!
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Thank you!
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Thank you very much 
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Forgot to post my 20 days, now at day 21, one day at a time
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Iām quite proud of myself as well.
Iām starting to notice my depression is upping its game right now. This is usually a trigger for my ED-dissociative eating, purging=unhealthy stress release coping mechanism.
Yesterday I ate a pasta dinner that mske me feel uncomfortably full, then my daughter made cookies and I had one on an already full stomach. I caught myself starting to get ready for a binge and took myself off to do a guided meditation. My brain calmed down (and my food stayed down). This was a real win for me that required attention, effort and using my sobriety tools.
Iām even going to have breakfast and lunch today I hope 
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Thank you, and great job on your progress as well, we got this!!
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