Checking in here.
I have had disordered eating since I was 14. Mainly b/p but periods of restriction as well. It has always been the pattern that either alcohol/drugs, or my ED, have been more prominent and this has cycled on and on over the years.
I am happy to say though, that 51 days into sobriety from alcohol, I have only had a handful of bad eating days. This is SUCH a huge change from my m.o.
I think what has helped is I’ve purposefully stopped tracking my calorie intake on my fitbit app. I recognise that this either encourages me to keep the numbers low, or gives me a f’ it mentality if I see the numbers are already above my comfort zone, so I’ll just inhale food and, well, you know.
I can’t say I’m feeling comfortable about food all the time, but I am practicing gratitude and meditation and I really think this is helping me to have a new appreciation for what I have, and is stopping me from getting into that dissociative state where I will b/p.
It is small steps, but I’m proud of myself and just wanted to share it here.
I hope everyone here is having a good day.
One week no disordered eating 
super motivated to.keep this going. Hugs and good thoughts to everyone, stay strong 
Good job Jenny, keep it up! 
Yesterday and today I have been feeling the effects of having gluten.
And yet,
I seem to have just run towards it.
I had a grilled cheese sandwich yesterday, and some white castle sliders today.
I have been giving in to cravings for “comfort food” or quick food, or “I don’t have energy to cook” food.
I am frustrated with myself for it. Tomorrow is another day to choose health over convenience… hopefully I can stick to rice and veggies
8 days disordered eating free, need to hit the shops today, so will be calling on my higher power to get me through temptations. Have a great day everyone 
Great work, well done on 1 week 
Thank you!
Struggling a bit today. It’s so strange how your eyes can see one thing but you know in your logical brain it’s not true. Body dysmorphia sux! I am using all my tools today to remain present and sober. Hugs to all!
Congrats on 2 weeks!
Thank you so much!
Yes, congratulations on 2 weeks! That’s great, keep it up!
Thank you!
Congratulations @Jenny1972
Thank you very much 
Forgot to post my 20 days, now at day 21, one day at a time
Well done on 20+ days @Jenny1972 ,you’re doing do well
I’m quite proud of myself as well.
I’m starting to notice my depression is upping its game right now. This is usually a trigger for my ED-dissociative eating, purging=unhealthy stress release coping mechanism.
Yesterday I ate a pasta dinner that mske me feel uncomfortably full, then my daughter made cookies and I had one on an already full stomach. I caught myself starting to get ready for a binge and took myself off to do a guided meditation. My brain calmed down (and my food stayed down). This was a real win for me that required attention, effort and using my sobriety tools.
I’m even going to have breakfast and lunch today I hope 
Thank you, and great job on your progress as well, we got this!!
Back to day one, won’t give huge details here, not everyone in my support system agrees with me and thinks I’m being to hard on myself. I define my sobriety and for me, it was breaking my boundaries and definitions. So made it one day, I am strong, I will stay sober today. ODAAT