A strawberry cheesecake ice cream cone
A wing drumstick
Some green beans and carrots
AND
Broccoli cheese soup in a bread bowl from Panera (free from my kid )
I feel too full. Like Iāve eaten too much. I havenāt checked the calories
But it is what it is.
Edit
Ice cream 350 cal
Chicken 44 cal
Veggies 50 cal
Soup 900 cal
Hey buddy. Today I ate two microwave burritos and a salisbury steak frozen dinner. Nothing healthy in me today. Iām trying to judge my food less in terms of good or bad and more in terms of what my body is asking me for. I felt salty today and got my fill.
I am often in a calorie deficit these days due to time, summer heat and overall energy. When Iām feeling down it is hard to feel like I deserve food. When I am happy I indulge. When I am deeply unhappy I binge.
Yesterday I didnāt eat. There was too much going on, too much stress.
Today I went applying for jobs, and got a kombucha, and when I came home realized I got food for everyone but me, and air fried 12 chicken nuggets.
12 is a lot and it took me a while to eat them. But I told myself since I didnāt eat anything else today or yesterday, I should have more for protein.
Feeling fullā¦ Which comes with a whole other set of feelings
Shame, guilt, sadness, etc.
But itāll pass and itāll be ok
Tomorrow I work at 430 am so Iām attempting an early bed time. We will seeā¦
12 chicken nuggets is around 600 calories according to google. You could eat double that and still be on a pretty strict ādietā. You donāt need to feel guilty. It is not too much food for anyone. What it doesnāt have is fibre and many other nutrients. Focus on what you need to add to your diet.
It felt like a lot because it was 3 servings on the package, and it made me feel too full. Probably since I forgot to eat the day before, and it was an all meat no veggies meal. I have always been so careful to include vegetables and a carbohydrate in my (at least) one meal a day, but have started messing it up. Today I will focus on nutrition
I really just want to eat without thinking about it. Having enough nutrients.
I had gotten to a point where I almost wasnāt thinking about the food I was eating, but then the doctor told me i was sick and needed to lose weight and i fell off the cliff and didnāt eat at all for a few days, blaming it on depression, and then counting calories, and then giving myself a goal of under 1000, because it was ābetterā than āwhen I was restrictingā and have been fighting to climb out of that thinking since.
I think the full sized plate on Sunday was too ambitious, but I shouldnāt have skipped eating Monday and most of Tuesday as a resultā¦ And then I should have had more variety in the food choices. Chicken nuggets are food in the house for the kids. I shouldnāt have even been eating it. And then I felt sick the rest of the night. Even when I left for work this morningā¦ So today i have been trying to have healthy options that include all of the food groupsā¦ no fruit so farā¦ But I donāt really feel like going back out to the grocery store, so I might thaw some frozen fruit later
If you have a microwave, you can microwave the frozen fruit. To whatever stage of unfrozen you want it, with the hot weather itās nice to have it still partially frozen sometimes.
Iām proud of you for what youāre doing. Youāre thinking about it in a constructive way. At some point, it will end up being second nature.
Also how youāre teaching your children.
With the CHF itās probably important for you to pay attention to the sodium. Iād say of all your dietary concerns that might be the most important. Remembering, too, that too little can be just as bad as too much. We all need some salt. Big hugs.
Here to sayā¦
I made food to eat today at work, then decided against it.
Wanted to eat, but something is stopping me.
I went to the grocery store and bought some tuna to put on some seaweed pieces I haveā¦but
I just donāt have any desire to eat. It feels like a chore.
I just want to sleep.
Work is taking all of my mental and physical energy.
I am not sure if my not eating or not wanting to eat is from physical illness or mental illness at this point.
Forced the issue and ate a pack of tuna with a pack of seaweed bites. And 3 mini quesadillas on almond flour gluten free tortillas.
Guess itās good. Now I can go to sleep
Glad you did get to eat something. The stomach does shrink after a while of not eating and it unfortunately does feel.like a chore to eat but you gotta re learn eating in a sense.
After a while the body starts craving food and feeling hungry in its own.
Hey friend, I get this is really tough on you this whole eating situation thing. Iām glad to hear you managed to eat something yesterday, that is a win. Also when sick our bodies often turn down our appetite and we donāt want to eat that much. But eating something is realy important.
Iām with @JazzyS on the shrinking stomach. Your systems - body, mind, heart - get used to our habits, and that does not always feel good.
Is there a way for you to have some stuff around you, you could nibble on through the day? If you do not feel like eating, and feel uncomfortable about it, nibbling on whatever sometimes helps.
Also giving yourself permission to eat anything and everything without judging yourself too much is really better than not eating.
Sending hugs
I ate at Panera today.
Half Greek salad and cup of tomato soup.
There were croutons and a piece of bread included. And I ate it too.
Shouldnāt have. Because Iām supposed to avoid gluten.
I just wanted to feel ānormalā
But eating what I know I shouldnāt isnāt good. So again I feel guilt.
Itās all in my head. I just have to get over it.