Fantasizing about my older therapist

I agree. It feeds (SA). You are not with another person usually if you are addicted to porn and/or masterbation. I know (SA) encompasses those who actually have sex woth multiple people. My (SA) is just restricted to activities I perform alone. From fantasizing to watching porn and/or masturbating. I am always alone and it feels like it is going to be this way forever. Hence, I would only have fantasies to enjoy what most people naturally do- connection, relationships, being loved, wanted, needed. I feel so invisible so I retreat into my inner world. Besides (SA) I also suffer from debilitating depression. I don’t think anyone will ever see me as valuable, worthy of love, or anything else. I just don’t.

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I’m not sure if SLAA meetings are nearby for you. But that would be something I would look into. In those meetings, I was able to work on my SA while uncovering my emotional and social anorexia.

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