Jessica - it is a huge accomplishment to be 7 days clean and sober!!! YOU are doing amazing - this is by far the hardest period. The beginning 1 day thru first 30 is the worst! You’ve gotten through the thick of it. Do this for you and congratulate yourself. Put your time sober on the How many days are y’all sober and / or Screenshot Your Clean time.”I’ll go first” threads — We will all praise your accomplishments.
I know that when you feel like shit the last thing your addict brain want you to do is get help (it rather see you succumb to the disease) so you stay away from this community or your other support systems. Do know that this is the time you need the community and your support systems the most. Force yourself to log on even if its just to say hi in your daily check in’s or do some daily gratitude. I can’t tell you how much being here has saved my life.
I’m sorry that you did not get the congratulations you were expecting from your boyfriend. For those that are not fighting addiction(s) or for those that are able to leave addiction without the same struggle then they don’t understand how big this is. I proudly say that I’ve hit such and such milestone to my family members and tell them that it was a hard road so far and I’m celebrating this milestone by doing xyz. I don’t wait for them to say congrats as I’m doing this for me and i want them to know i’ve accomplished something and i am rewarding myself for that accomplishment. Nothing big - a dinner, movie, jewelry…etc.
I hope you are able to celebrate this 7 day milestone and be proud of yourself. You’ve made it another day sober!!!