Retuning addict. Hey everyone—just wanted to explain the reason behind my username and post. I’ve been stuck in a porn cycle since middle school, and now at 32, it’s still affecting me. Though I identify as straight, I’ve developed fetishistic attractions toward trans women and androgynous men.
My pattern has become installing Grindr whenever the urges hit, then deleting it when the fantasies fade. I’m actually fighting that urge right now—it’s thrilling in the moment, but in real life, I end up feeling embarrassed and realize I’m not actually attracted to men. It’s complicated, and I could really use some advice or words to help break this cycle.
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Hey there,
Welcome 
In my opinion any non-substance addiction needs similar treatment and awareness like substance addiction. Have you ever tried a programm to overcome your addiction or to break the cycle?
Deciding to quit and staying away from it by willpower is a first huge step. But it needs more! You might find helpful tips for Programms, books, podcasts, groups etc. here in the forum 
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I’ve done the same with forum type app. My devices are in lockdown but I discovered there’s porn on on this major forum and I also install watch masterbate and delete. I delete like I can’t ever download it again and then I get the urge and download again.
it’s a hard cycle to break for sure. One day at a time and stick to your plan.