I realized that I’m running in circles wanting to quit every time I do coke and I cry so hard. Then the next day I’m getting it again. This cycle has gone on for over a year now. Tonight I finally told my dad I need help and want to go to a ca meeting. I feel better. But scared. Will that be enough? Will I need rehab? I don’t want to disappoint my family anymore
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One of the best things I ever did was come clean to my family. Before rehab, before meetings before anything else I did that because I just had to much and couldn’t take it anymore. You made an awesome step.
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Re: rehab. The position is split here. It worked for me, but I also had access to a lot of rehab choices and the ones I went to we’re great. One of the benefits of living in the middle of the heroin crisis. I live in long term supportive now and the county DSS pays for everything, so it’s pretty badass.
Recovery is a way of life in the Northeast. Depending on where you live they might be good options for you. I’m always up for helping you look into different options.
CA may be enough. We can’t answer that for you. A program will work if you HONESTLY work it. And don’t look for for the exits or short cuts. Regardless you will find your peeps there. The thing rehab has to offer is a crash coarse (educating) yourself. It usually gives access to a counselor. And a group meeting or two. Now if you want to have a rehab type experience go to a couple of meetings a day and find a professional to see a couple of times a week.
I live in Hamilton Ontario Canada
I think Ontario is making some pretty good progress in the recovery arena. Rehab is good for dealing with physical withdraw. CA is good for healing the mental, emotional and spiritual side. If CA is hard to find NA would work. You could also try AA depending on the meeting. The ones I go to are very tolerate of drugs. Some are not.
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I sleep all day and as soon as it crosses my mind I get more. The cravings are like nothing I could have ever imagined. I don’t know if it’s because I have borderline personality disorder or what. But I have lost all control. Like I’m inside my body saying “No don’t do it” but I’m still doing it
It’s because it floods your body with endorphins. The cravings aren’t your fault. Given that they seem to be strong, maybe a detox center could help?
Im going to na tomorrow and ca Wednesday. 
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Can you let us all know how it goes? Or if you have any questions about the meetings in general before you go just ask. I’ve been to over 300 in the last 4 months so I’m starting to get just a tiny understanding of the meetings. I’m still a baby at it myself though.
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I am so greatful for this app . And all of u. Thank u
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Thank you for coming. You help me (us) more than you realize probably. But someday you will understand when you get the chance to pass on your knowledge. It’s how recovery works!
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