Hey there. What are you doing to get sober? I can feel the desperation in your post, are you channeling that into recovery work or is it just situational cos you’ve just relapsed?
Just not picking up is not enough for anyone with an addiction. You have to immerse yourself in recovery, community and emotionally work through the reasons of why you escape from reality with oxy.
Here are some resources. Pick three and start today:
And some wisdom:
Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
Good luck.