No not really. I csnt talk about it especially with my family.
Hey, Yes it is a very challenging time in your life, as you know professional help is the best way to support you on your journey to soberty. In Germany we have a social support opportunitiy, you write a letter and fill out papers why you need this (mental) health vacation (perhaps in a specialised hotel/clinic with courses etc.) and then they give you i directly some money so that you can take part for some weeks. Itās a lifechanger and Iām sure thats exactly what you need right now, perhaps you could find similar opportunities from social-organisations in your country/region? Just reach out for help in your everyday life by taking tiny steps towards it, do you have friends/family/colleagues who probably know more about it/can give you some comfort/security?
Yeah im struggling. Had a big relapse until 4 dayd ago. I lost focus of my goal, stopped caring about my program. Im glad that with all stims I have 50 + days sober , its just this one doc thats making me feel split. I want to be free of it and I wish I had never tried it. Yet I get many cravings throughout the day. Meditation does help. I feel like Im starting the journey to sobriety again it feels like all the efforts I made before are wasted for nothing. I never want to lose focus again but when the cravings strike it feels so unimportant
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Hey, yeah I know eaxactly what you mean, trapped againā¦but you can be sooo proud of yourself! 50days! And I trust you, so seem to be positive, youāll try again and again and resist so one day you can look back and see how much youāve grown. YOUR STRONG and you can do this!
Thanks. I did do some progress really. I was a daily methylphenidate abuser and im away from that for even 84 days. Its just so weird I sometimes dream every night of using one day I wake up and my willpower is gone / I decide to be weak
Your doing great ā¦ them horrible cravings are a nightmareā¦ its so strange cos since i started doing my 12 steps the obsession has gone ā¦ ive tried for years to give up drink and drugsā¦ but nothing worked ā¦ at the end my crack and heroin addiction was out of controlā¦ i nearly died ā¦ then i gave aa a try and never looked back ā¦ maybe try a meetingā¦ its saved my life x
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17 days without a drink ,and all i can think about is having a glass of wine !!!really finding it hard the last couple of days .have had a constant headache and am close to thinking if i have a glass of wine if might get rid of it .jo x
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You know it willā¦ temporarilyā¦but @Shell told me to play the tape forward. You know where that scenario ends and itās never good. Ride the wave. I think the headaches can be toxins leaving your body. Last thing you need is to put more in. Go for a walk read a book or stay on here but do distract yourself. Iāve been like you this last week and I had to reset and it really was not worth it. Good luck x
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A good person here told me that when I started out, sheās moved on now but her words have stuck with me, possibly the best bit of advice I ever had 
I love to see the knowledge passed around 
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Play it forward and pay it forward 
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Are you just not drinking? If you do it this way, you will find it very hard.
You need to include other things to help overcome the mental and physical addiction.
There is Loads of information on here.
These cravings do pass in time and each time you donāt pick up you get stronger. Youāre āflexing your sober musclesā so to speak.
As @adeygaga49 says, play the tape through. Think about why you have given up. And how you would feel if you did drink.
By the time I got to 2 weeks I kept reminding myself of how hard it had been to get there and I really really didnāt want to have to go through it all again.
Have you thought about a recovery program of some sort? AA?
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Ooo I like that, Iām gonna remember that one
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110 days today Im dealing with the samething, i tried to kill myself about 9 days ago waz in the hospital for 3 dayz and truly regret it, i just try to help people and pray and do gratitude lists God bless yaā¦keep talking about it should help
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I relapsed over the weekend with more Meth than I ever done before. Iām in such agonizing pain that I thought I was done for. Being out in the elements because Iām homeless make my suffering even worse. But I got a ray of hope today. My social security check finally came in and Iāll no longer be homeless. Everything that Iāve been through iny life I feel this was the worst experience yet.! I no longer enjoy Meth as I once did. So I ask everyone to be with me in thought as I make a new beginning.
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Good luck in your new journey x your in my prayers x
Try AAā¦if it doesnāt make sense at first and you donāt know what the hell youāre doing and you donāt want to be there then thatās perfect youāre right where you need to be. God will reveal more as time progresses
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Hiya Travis. Welcome.
Just to let you know that this is an old thread.
Look at the dates on the replies.
In saying that, well done for reading around on here. Some of the old threads have some seriously good information.
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Still I good thread if someone is struggling thoā¦
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OMG! This is so crazy serendipitous that this thread came back to me today of all days and at the exact spot reminding me why I fled my last job- because of the abusive bully Queen Bee boss! Ive been struggling since a few weeks ago they gave my job to a guy who moved in town from Southern California. I just remembered today to turn to the higher conscious/higher power. And viola!
Thanks TS peepsš
PS still sober after 3 years!
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And still working IT, instead of IT working you. Amazing.
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