It’s been too hard living, but I’m afraid to die
'Cause I don’t know what’s up there above the sky
It’s been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change’s gonna come, oh, yes, it will
I have thought about all the change that is going on in me, with me, around me, with my friends, and around my friends. So so much is changing for all of us at a pace that is just to quick to comprehend. But I look at some of the things that I thought were bad changes in the last few months – stuff that I didn’t know how tomorrow would come -some for me and some for others. But tomorrow came for all of us. With each passing day, it brought with it some more understanding as I was able to move from being that thing to witnessing that thing. That movement allowed me to see the magic in these things happening to me and others as we continue to heal and do the next right thing and allow HP to play the Lila is his own way.
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I kinda thought about them 
Unfortunately, as you know, the PNW is pretty wet, and they wouldn’t be cute for long.
I am sorry for your loss, and I am grateful you are still here.
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Haha… Those are going to be gobbled up by the sneakerheads. If they do a Workingman’s Dead pair of Red Wings… Lol
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My therapist said something to me the other day… well a lot of things. She has quit drinking alcohol, not because she has a problem, but because she sees it suppressed so much in me and I allegedly inspired her to avoid the spirit in the bottle (She is a Jungian). In talking about some big decisions on my plate, she said something that I found to be curious. That I had integrity… I have no idea how or why she said that b/c I don’t feel that way. I look back at the things I have done and to an extent, the things I still do and that weight is just heavy at times. I see how alcohol allowed me to lower my standards faster than I could get below that standard. I had the radio playing this weekend while I was doing some work around the house and I caught this song … being that it was my mama’s birthday it hit a bit differently and made me think about a line from Brokedown Palace:
Mama, mama, many worlds I’ve come
Since I first left home
I got too far from my raising, I forgot where I come from
And the line between right and wrong was so fine
Well I thought the highway loved me
But she beat me like a drum
My day will come, if it takes a lifetime
As protective as my mama was of me, often holding me back from doing things as a kid, she knew that there was only so long she could hold on to me. Each time Goat went away, he had to go farther and and farther until he was a world away from that 800 sq ft house we all grew up in roaming the streets of Manhattan. For so many years I tried to run from that house, from doing without, from parents that never understood, from a world that just never seemed like home. I never wanted to be that boy that wasn’t dressed well, that had holes in his shoes, that had bad haircuts, couldn’t get a girlfriend to save his life, and that had to ride around in a fucking Ford Pinto (what I wouldn’t give to have one now LOL).
I was so busy running from all that I forgot that the love and compassion my mother had for others that I could never understand. I didn’t care about the line between right and wrong as long as I got mine and once i got mine it wasn’t enough. The goalpost moved and I needed more… more… more…mine…mine…mine. Until that desire and need for more damn near killed me.
So maybe if I keep doing what I am doing, don’t get a above my raisin’s, I may be able to see these things in me – even if it takes a lifetime.
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I don’t know what it is about this song, but I heard it for the first time yesterday and I absolutely love it!
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Felt good to go for a ride around the island listening and jamming out to this. Ain’t no one getting the best of me anymore! Gotta stand up for yourself and take back what is yours! 
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Feels so good to just drive with the windows down sunroof open and scream sing lmao that’s what I call it.
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Some of my best times for sure.
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I think we can all relate to this song in some way.
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Awesome cover! He did it way better than NIN.
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Decided to dig out some of my favourite rock albums this morning and started with this masterpiece. Its pretty much perfect in my eyes.
This line really struck a cord
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