This is a good life lesson in general 
I remember when I was younger someone said, it’s easy to get along / be good / be the person you want to be, if you live alone on a mountain. (We were talking about growth & whether the world was the cause of problems, or if it was something else - like maybe an essential space for learning and growth.)
It’s easy when things are easy. But it matters, when things are hard.
Don’t get intimidated by this, @K_reed1. Instead, use this to motivate you. You have to reach out for help, find a program (like on of these Online meeting resources or www.AA.org or from the list here Resources for our recovery) and work it. Don’t say you’ll do it by yourself. It never works like that. Instead, push yourself out of your comfort zone, and go where you can do the work to get fit and be the man you want to be.
One step at a time 