We are spread out in this forum, here’s a place we can check in.
I’ll start it off
Today is day 114
3 setbacks in 114 days.
This week: any unsound behavior?
I’ve been logging into YouTube but on the tv only. No unsound activity this week. No bad fantasy thoughts to report.
Recovery tactics: porn free radio, therapy on spotify
Did i check in with my sponsor: no. Will today.
@Msoulheart
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@MeSober
I think we should do some specific accountability questions. I also struggle at 90 to 120 days. Log any unsound behavior/ thoughts. What recovery techniques were doing. Gotta be transparent if we want to keep our sobriety.
Hello, Carrot here. Day 1, some thoughts about it but none strong enough to even get me turned on. Mostly depressed.
I struggle both with porn and booze and Iv noticed the longer I don’t drink the less I want to look at porn it’s strange but yes I will give this a shot
Hi checkin here day 2, my girlfriend has decided to stay with me. I told her I am seeking help. I’m still going strong.
Hope you’re doing okay Carot.
Evening check in, day 118 3 set backs,
Need to do some recovery work this evening just because i haven’t done any today.
Checking in here for day 3. As I lay in bed im getting semi strong urges. I just want to nap and be better. My girlfriend said she doesn’t mind if I use out videos to masturbait. However I want to go much longer before I do that.
checking in day 117 (yesterday was really 116). Good day so far, only issue: Not taking the time to write out my real plan. Gotta do that now.
How is everyone doing?
Checking in day 5, im still a complete mess and my anxiety is crazy. Back on my medicine but my anxiety is so much I’ve thought about breaking up with my girlfriend.
Sorry to hear that bro. It’s a day to day battle. I also struggle with anxiety. Therapy in a nutshell on spotify has really helped me. You might want to check it out and try to apply the principles and see if it helps
What are some examples of unsound behavior and thoughts to you in the context of Pmo addiction?
Are you including relapses in those?
What about fantasy thoughts?
What about going on social media to find women to look at?
I woke up with bad thoughts about a coworker. I couldn’t shake it. After finally dismissing it, i didn’t do any recovery. I didn’t contact anyone. I didn’t come on here.
There is one of my major issues. I do this thing where if i don’t have issues over a few weeks, i begin to act like everything is normal, like I’m normal and I’m most definitely not. Istop doing the work and my plan.
Im not on social media, but sometimes iscroll through youtube and mentally I’m looking at women, my mind searching for shapes.
Yesterday really felt like rock bottom. I got home with my kid and we were going to play games Together. I got him started and went to the bathroom. There is where i relapsed. He was beating on the door, saying he didn’t want to be alone. I wasnt in there long but i felt so ashamed and humiliated. My family deserves better. I deserve better.
Ive been focusing so much on working out and going to the gym. If i don’t take care of my mind as top priority, i will lose everything.
Day Was listening to an Audiobook on porn addiction and it was describing ways to determine if you have PIED.
This was triggering to me i think because i got a small amount of arousal feelings thinking about the ways.
Is this unsound behavior then?
hey friends, just admitted for the first time that i have a porn addiction on top of my drug addictions. it felt so much less terrifying to admit i like drugs than to admit i can’t stop watching or thinking about porn. i don’t know much of anything about this addiction or the groups surrounding it (bc i was in denial and preferred to stay ignorant), so if anyone has some spare time to chat through these things, that would be greatly appreciated :] wish yall the best !! thanks if ya read this <3
Hey welcome Jesse, your bravery is inspiring to me, so much I’m going to join in here.
I see you shame and we know each other well. Come sit a our tea party where we also have invited warmth , compassion and especially comraderie .
I end up over sharing a lot of time so I’m trying to choose carefully my amends and confessions now. I’ll say I was in shame for a better part of a decade, they aren’t kidding when they say it’s hell . Break the chains the sooner the better. Become the phenix rising free with love and empathy for our fellows.
I’m nearing 60 yo give or take and couldn’t be happier with a waning libido. Ive started praying lately and I’ll say may you find strength in your higher power to never stop loving ourselves. A good sponsor I would have welcomed had I known the Recovery that’s possible .
Thx for letting me share, -Owen
thank you for your share owen, i’m glad you’re here! it means a lot that you’re willing to share (and that i could inspire ya :])!! you’re inspiring me to be kind not only to my fellows throughout this journey, but myself as well. i’ve also been battling this shame for about a decade, so you aren’t alone there.
praying can make me nervous, especially bc i second guess myself a lot and feel i “don’t pray right” but you’ve given me some courage to try. so, many thanks friend, and i hope you’re well <3
So very kind of you Jesse, hoping you’re well also. Forgot to mention a sponsor of mine said to me ’ where did you get all that judgment from’ alas it is just fine to be average.
Hope you have a good long stay here we are in good hands. 
