Yesterday for the first time in a couple of years, I hiked up coast guard hill. Its a steep hike, about 1000 feet in elevation. I hiked it aggressively and didnt need to stop and catch my breath for the first time on this hike. We do heal! I was so proud of myself that I hiked the whole park twice!
On my way up the hill, I noticed a bottle of nyquil and a brand new large size vape pen on the side of the road. When I realized what the vape was, I thought about trying it. The “nobody will know” voice spoke to me. (I dont answer to anyone )
After making it up the hill without stopping, any temptation I was feeling was gone. I threw them both in the garbage can at the park.
We do heal. How amazing that you were able to do that hike. The pics were lovely as well. Huge congrats on not listening to the stupid voice…it just is annoying how it inserts itself when we are not expecting it.
Some impressive smoke free time…yeah to healing lungs
Thanks for sharing. I think its healthy to know thoughts will still come even when youve had sustained sobriety but the claws and need to use on impulse is less.
Today walking out of an aa meeting i smelled a fruity vape flavor in the error. I took a big whiff and then was like no.no.dont want back on that insanity.
Halibut and tuna will both start in June. We have been nearshore fishing. we have three different boats we fish for nearshore. one is a small boat that we use rods and reels for. That’s what I’ve been doing lately. We have two medium sized boats that we fish longline gear for nearshore. both have been broke down. one we fixed this week. and if the crabs show back up we will put some gear back out. some years summer crab is good. and there is salmon in there too. two of our boats we can halibut fish if we fill a quota on one fast enough.
We catch a lot of cool stuff on the longline. I will be posting it all on my YouTube channel.
There are some physical things I miss about smoking. My co worker smokes and seeing him and be a slave to the habit makes grateful I don’t anymore. Editing videos. I always had a smoke hanging out of my mouth. Its really nice not to have that anymore. freedom! Not smoking still pays my rent every month too.
Hey friends! Day 170 without a cigarette and 4 weeks completely nicotine-free (kicked the vape), also coming up on 2 years no alcohol….. was taking cannabis most days til a week ago, so this past 7ish days have been completely substance-free! I’m shook!
I wanna smoke a cig so bad! I’m just like….”wait I can’t be completely finished with everything bad for me, I just want to smoke a cig at least” I haven’t craved cigarettes this whole 170 days til yesterday. Cravings are strong!! It’s mostly emotional, like when sadness crosses my heart which it does a lot, I just want to smoke. I’m glad I haven’t caved yet. I should get a therapist, deal w the grief.
I’m doing a lot to better my health these days and picking up cigs is clearly antithetical to what I’ve been working on. Just can’t do it can I. Hmmmmm I already feel relief just typing this so thank you for this space. Love you guys
Whoa!!! Flex them sober muscles girl
.you rock!!! So impressive and your body / mind will thank you.
I totally get the mind saying “we can’t be totally addiction free”. Seriously…this is the addiction talking. You totally can and be super happy not being stuck in anything …way to go
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. Way to go with your timer! Awesome work my friend 
. Keep kicking ass in your journey 
