Itās so stinking hard coming back from injury and surgery. I knew it was going to be but the reality of it just keeps hitting every day. I hate having to be a beginner at something again, being weak, and keeping it slow even when I feel good.
Been following Peloton run + walk interval guided audios and liked the quote in the one from today with Kristen Ferguson
Donāt compare your chapter one to someone elseās chapter twenty.
This also reminds me to stop comparing my current self to my past self.
This must be so hard. Iāve been thinking about you a lot ever since your advice on the belt. I didnāt know your history. Iām super afraid of accidents, also cycle a lot. I donāt know what I would do w/o lifting, I depend on it with the mental health so much. Really feel for you Jess. And really admiring your strength and patience starting all over again.
Yaahh Iām real good at keeping to myself and not sharing details of my history. Otherwise I tend to lean towards over explaining and trying to prove myself. Iāve kept things on TS as simple as possible and tried to keep that vibe out. And itās hard to let myself take up space outside of a few select threads but Iām trying.
I wish I had been more afraid of accidentsā¦my mental health also depended on lifting (and cycling and hiking and running) but I never realized just how much until I lost it. I appreciate your response
And I will also say my patience is less and is rather ugly irl lol itās a good thing no one is around to hear my frustration during my workouts.
Iām still working back from my spine surgery, even though Iām doing pretty well now. The first 3-4 months I felt like I was never going to be near my old self, how I used to feel, and what I could do. Towards the start, I couldnāt even walk a quarter mile without needing to sitā¦and then sitting hurt, too. Me ā 33, healthy, active ā shuffling and hunched like a broken old man. I couldnāt fucking stand it.
But every day I walked, working on a little more, a little faster.
Now 6 mos on and Iām running again, and at speeds faster than my avg pre-surgery, metal in my spine and all. Lifting heavier than I could risk before.
I had a similar feeling for 4 yrs leading up to surgery where my symptoms kept getting worse, I kept losing more physical ability, and no doctor could tell me what it was. I was terrified of losing my ability to lift etc. I had already had to give up playing soccer which was horrible.
Coming back as a ābeginnerā is tough. But thatās only physical. Youāre not a beginner mentally. Once you start to see that upward progress continue back to old form, itās exciting. Surgery out of the way, youāre now positioned to be even better physically than you once were.
You will get it back. Just keep working and be sure to listen to your body
@Faugxh I wore my belt on my last 3 heavy lifts. The belt really wonāt make much of a difference in lifting capacity but it helps keeping tight. I would just watch/ read what actual experts in the field on and see what they say (not people like me or even a personal trainer at a local gym).
Wet race, almost dreary if it werent for all the unusually optiminist runners still had a good time, smiled and accepted the situation. Missed my goal time of 2hrs, but now my dry, warm bed n blankets feel better than they have in weeks!
Working my way through that post breakup anxiety and lowness and back from my bad back situation, doing some heavy lunges, bridges and deloaded deadlifts to find that sweet spot again. Injuries always do a number on my form. Diligently warming up and stretching down always now. Earned my dinner for sure.
I used to be a gym rat. I lived off of an insanely healthy diet and strict workout regiment for 2 years straight. Then the alcohol took over. Iām happy to say that Iām back in the grind but not focusing so much on how strict everything is and just enjoying every gym session. Since becoming sober I have felt like Iām walking around in someone elseās body and the gym is the one place I feel normal
Way to go on getting back to the gym! I can relate all to well. Like urself, I also lived at the gym. 2 hours every single day (sometines twice a day) with the odd day off here n there. Strict eating regimen also. But then drugs took over my life and that practically went all downhill. Since getting clean, my gym routine is good right now but my diet on the other hand lol not so good lol
For real lol! As someone whose runs leading up to the race was predominantly early morning treadmill runs; the standing water, mud and leaves def added to my precieved wear n tear during the run.
Also, Iāve ran in various rains (favorite being summer storm rain- great energy) this however was a cold, continous wet blanket type of negative energy that added to my mindstate.
Still a great run and im glad i did it. Halves are the perfect distance for me.
Monday workout
I cant even believe i worked out this morning haha Im on team no sleep today due to not having a nurse for my son last night but i just felt like i needed to do something at the gym. Did biceps and back with alittle cardio on the recumbent bike. I actually curled more than i ever have before for some odd reason. Doing bicep curls i did 4 sets alternating btwn 20lb and 25lb dumbbells. Preacher curls with 15lbs focusing on quality of my exercises. Feeling pretty good about that anyway. Really focused on mind-muscle movement and stayed in the moment feeling good but needing some rest soon haha
Back to morning workouts now that the rest of the country has set the clocks back an hour (AZ doesnāt do daylight savings). I can go before work when the time difference is 2hrs like it now is.
Tough shifting back to working out at 430/5am on an empty stomach, but I much prefer it. Like getting it done and not having to go after work. The gym is also much emptier and quieter.
still had a good time, smiled and accepted the situation. Missed my goal time of 2hrs, but now my dry, warm bed n blankets feel better than they have in weeks!
feeling good but needing some rest soon haha
