It is a process 
The old expression “if you walked a mile into the forest you gotta walk a mile out” applies
The good news is you have lots of support and if you take it one day at a time, you will get there.
Stick around here on Talking Sober - it’s nice to stay connected. Check in when you can - Checking in daily to maintain focus #47 - and browse around the other threads too, to find ones you like.
Have you joined a group? There are groups online, Online meeting resources, and many people find groups helpful. You can find in person ones too: search “recovery groups near me” and you’ll find some.
Welcome to Talking Sober! 