I said the same thing in the beginning. Those kind people at meetings taught me God can be anything I want it to be and doesn’t have to be religious. I found nature to be my god. Knowing I couldn’t stay sober by myself and there aren’t other convenient options in my area, I decided to stick with AA. Now, whenever I hear the word god, I substitute it in my head with nature.
Many in the rooms will tell you the acronym G.O.D can stand for Good Orderly Direction or Group of Drunks. Once I got past this one word, it opened a whole new recovery world for me. Without open mindedness and willingness, you’ll find yourself right back where you started.
AA is not the only program out there. Have you considered SMART, Dharma or any of the others? Here’s a link: Resources for Recovery
Wishing you the best on your journey.