Thanks for your opinions, friends. I do have severe anxiety which brings about a lot of guilt, especially since I’m not keeping up with a program as much as I should be. I do have some more poems I think! They’re mostly just gushy love shit but I’ll try to find one I like enough to share with you all.
(I am also not writing as much as I’d like to, which hurts my soul a little bit.)
5 Likes
28 days until I go away. It’s all hitting me hard. I have so much to do. Still won’t know for how long until the judge tells me. Please send good vibes my way and sprinkle some magic in the air for me. 
I graduated IOP today! I feel proud, but I also learned that a friend from my group died from alcohol poisoning this month.
Just glad to be sober today.
Of course my brain is like, no more UA’s! You could go out, but I have no desire to today.
Love you all.
9 Likes
Happy for you Knives 
You must be scared. It’s intimidating to know prison is coming 
How are you handling it?
1 Like
I’m not really handling it lol. I’m taking myself out to eat my favorite food like, every day, working and making as much money as humanly possible, getting as many good tattoos as my artist has time for, tying up loose ends, spending time with my loves, and basically just trying to do whatever I want to do right now. Distractions.
3 Likes
Are you afraid?
1 Like
Positive vibes and magic sprinkles heading your way 🧚♀️💖
Hope you can experience as much joy and love over the next 28 days as you can possibly fit in!
1 Like
I’m not sure I’m really “afraid”, I’m just really nervous and I don’t like not knowing what to anticipate. I have a lot of anxiety.
3 Likes
Love the poem. You are so talented my friend. If you had a book out I’d buy it.
Thinking of you. What will happen in prison, forgive my ignorance but I assume inmates are not allowed to use the internet? Will you be able to come here from time to time?
1 Like
Thank you very much for your kind words🖤
I will be able to receive letters and emails and I think when the time arises I’ll post my legal name and state so you all can probably look me up wherever I wind up
4 Likes
I would feel the same, Knives, but I know you’ll handle it each day as it comes. You may be able to help someone in there like a mentoring thing. They do have programs and classes… I know it sucks, but you’ll do it and get on the other side of it, sweetie.
3 Likes
I’m definitely doing to pursue college classes and do my best to make something beneficial come from it. I do have goals at least.
6 Likes
Thinking about you Knives, sending you good vibes and sprinkling the magic dust around…
Nice that you have goals… I hope that the time will be as short as possible and that you will soon be out and … … ready to publish that awesome book of poetry!
3 Likes
I’m at a court hearing now to change my plea and listening to the judge dole out his sentences and so far he has given every one I’ve heard a lesser sentence than the state has suggested. The judge seems to be very meticulous in reviewing facts and hearing the other side. I am having some hope today. Trying not to be too wishful, however.
12 Likes
Fingers crossed for you Knives!
3 Likes
Let us know the outcome
4 Likes
It was awful lol. He just reminded me I could be sentenced to life if he wanted to. Reminded me of all the rights that are being taken away. Made me state what happened, simply, in my own words. I have been in a bit of a hole ever since. 11 days left and I’m not doing well at all.
5 Likes
How much time did you get?
2 Likes
I’m sorry to hear that Knives. That’s such a depressing thing to hear. I know how much you regret it and to have to recount it to the judge is so, so hard. 
What do you need Knives? What do you need at this time?
2 Likes
I haven’t been sentenced yet. August 19. I have no idea what I need.
6 Likes