Drinking a lot more.
When u are truly sick and tired of ur own shit, u will find a way. What have u tried so far? I couldn’t do it myself ad hoc, I needed a plan, and accountability.
Being active on here will help. AA, Smart, or any of the other recovery programs have helped many people.
It may not feel like it, but relapsing is a choice. The beginning is tough. We have to re-learn how to live. It all starts with choosing to say no to the first drink.
Try a meeting they will help wish you well
Doing it alone rarely ever works. I personally use AA and this forum but there are a lot of other programs out there. Here’s a link: Resources for our recovery