I’m on day 5 and my husband gave me a half a methadone after i told him not to, now it’s all i can think about, i don’t want to fall
Throw it away NOW. Then do something else. Videogames, exercise, go for a really long walk and listen to loud music, anything to take your mind somewhere else.
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FLUSH IT!! Get outside. Go for a walk. Get to a meeting.
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I’m taking a drive listening to music
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@Shar i hope you’re proud of yourself tho 5 days is awesome! Keep going, learn to tell yourself no and like these guys said do something else to distract you. If you’re anything like me, you’ll regret it the second you do it! Proud of you!!!
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I took it about 2 hours ago, trying not to feel so bad but can’t help it@
@Shar, I’m not going to pretent here. I’m not going to be your enabler. Not good you shouldn’t have taken that half of methadone. You should have flushed it down the commode. Now you got to start over for what nothing, nothing at all. your husband was your enabler. That was not good! So if you were going to go out and kill yourself and he said go ahead and do it you do it so it’s okay for you to kill yourself! You know because you could have asked your higher power for guidance! You could have went to a meeting! You could have left and went for a walk. What do you want do you want to be an active addict? do you want to keep using? You need to sit down and have a talk with your higher power and figure out what you want cuz clearly you don’t want to be clean and sober and your husband doesn’t want you that way either. I will pray for you but you need to pray to.
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Well really??? I feel bad enough and i was doubled over in pain, no i don’t want to keep using and i prayed and prayed but i couldn’t, i left so i didn’t take it but couldn’t get it off my mind but truly i think I’m on the right path and will be clean whether it’s day 6 or day 1, i haven’t given up the fight!!! Where i live it’s not easy finding a meeting, been trying!!! I need positive influence in my life because when i feel threatened I’ll snap!
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@Shar, Well do you feel bad enough not to use the next time …I am not trying to be hard on you. I am just trying to tell you the facts. where I live there’s not no meetings either. I live in a town of 1,200 people have to travel 50 miles to find a meeting. You can have one excuse or you can have 200 it doesn’t matter to me it’s your sobriety that you’re fighting for not mine. You Can Be Your Own Worst Enemy or you can be your own best friend! It’s up to you you cannot be weak when you need to be strong! I have 337 days clean and sober from a 35-year opiate addiction. I am not just blowing smoke . I know what addiction is I know what it takes to be weak and I know what it takes to be strong. I am here because I care because I want to help people I want to help you. But you cannot pretend when you’re trying to help somebody. And that person cannot walk around with blinders on they have to open their eyes and look at reality. Your husband did not help you by giving you that pill! and you do not help yourself or your children if you have children by taking that pill. You are here because you want help am I right? And that’s what I want to do is help you and only the truth will do that.
…No your not CLEAN…
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@Shar, you can download meetings on your phone. You can go to meetings on your phone. You can download the big book on your phone. fact I download One day at a time on this here post everyday. Do you need a phone number of somebody to call? Because I will be more than willing to give you mine!
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I didn’t know that, thank u and yes please point me in the direction
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@Shar, Sometimes it’s so bad for me I feel like my whole body is just crawling right out of my skin. It’s kind of scary but it eventually goes away. And others it’s almost like a spasm. Is that what it feels like that and twitching…
Hey @shar, Did you happen to find a good online app. For meetings? I found a could on FB yesterday. If your interested let me know.
I haven’t found any yet, any direction would help me!!!
@Shar, Our message is Hope Narcotics Anonymous
On FB they have meetings every night of the week you have to look at their pinup but if you join you can look at their pin up and you’ll find it. It’s a great group