Hi and Welcome Marie. The beginning of our journey can be a real struggle. You got 4 days. That’s huge!
I did a lot of angry power walking many times twice a day along with a second really long hot shower in the early evening before dinner.
Have a good read around here. This place has been a great place for me to get support in my sobriety. Addiction is too tough to go it alone. We are stronger in numbers. And we are all worth it.
Here are two good threads to start: