Oh no that is heartbreaking. I’m so sorry for you. I’m also so sorry for him. I feel bad that he can’t see beyond himself in this. Oh well it’s his loss.
This is all about you. It sounds like you will have to find your support elsewhere: in yourself, and in your sober community. Find some meetings:
Online meeting resources
You are not alone, at all. There are many people here who have been right where you are; sadly there are many women here on this forum who have been through what you’ve experienced, or something similar.
Remember: he does not define you. He does not control you, or limit you. You are a good person who deserves a safe, sober life where she can be her full self. Never give up on yourself. Never stop trying. You deserve every minute of sobriety you can find. 