I know we are all different but I would like to know much people actually used to drink a day. I have had about 6-10 beers (440ml)a day for as long as I can remember. I have a mental craving for booze but no shaking or nausea etc.
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I had no regular pattern, but 95% of the time when I did drink, I drank until I was either drunk, blacking out, making an ass out of myself or all of the above. I drank when I was happy, sad, mad, bored whenever. I drank to celebrate, for social anxiety, to numb my mental pain, forget my past, because of shame, guilt, anger, and joy. After my 20’s, I added opiates, benzos, tranquilizers to get me there faster, trying to chase that first happy buzz. The problem is I’m an alcoholic/addict and one is too many and 1000’s not enough and I couldn’t live with myself anymore but I didn’t really want to die. I found my answers in rehab, AA and with a God of my understanding. My past has been erased and I can honestly say I have no shame or guilt about ANYTHING and that is the true miracle. Stay strong, stay sober, stay connected🌹
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I’ve always drank socially and it was never a problem. Within the past couple years, I’ve noticed it’s become more and more. Working in the restaurant industry hasn’t helped. All of my friends and coworkers get out of work and have a drink or two or seven. I found myself joining them and adopting the same pattern. It turned into working til close, drinking past close, then hitting the next bar. It always starts with just one, but it never ends with just one. Recently I’ve come to realize that maybe I can’t have just one and so then I decided it’s better that I dont have any at all.
In the beginning, it was all fun and games. I liked who I was sober and I liked who I was after drinking as well. After a while, Jekyll went away and Hyde came out. I was unpredictable. Sometimes I was mean or aggressive, sometimes I was reckless, & sometimes I was loud and obnoxious. I realized I was always someone that I didn’t want to be. I made careless and reckless decisions like driving. I let people down and blew them off. I constantly blew off my boyfriend, saying I’d be home after 1 drink, then I’d come home at 4 or 5am. Until he finally had enough. It was him or the alcohol.
And so I decided to make a change. At first it was just to cut back, but I could still drink. And I did okay at first. I stopped having a drink after work every night, I thought I had found the solution, I could drink but only a little and not often. But soon then when I did drink, I didn’t stop until I was blackout or throwing up. And then I started slipping and having drinks at the end of the night again. Which would lead to more binge drinking. I reset 8 times.
Finally I realized the answer is NO ALCOHOL AT ALL. Today is day 3. I look forward to proving to myself that I can do this and also checking in with progress.
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I would typically drink one to two 750 mL bottles of whiskey per week. I wouldnt drink every day though, i was a binge drinker so i would have a whole bottle in one night if not most of it. Gross!!! Im 12 days sober and im already feeling so much better!
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Whiskey was my go to also… I would do the same. And I had friends who supported that, they wanted to go out and get wasted all the time. That’s probably the hardest part of quitting, still being surrounded by those people and being tempted.
Congrats on 12 days, that’s awesome! And something to really be proud of and let it motivate you to keep going!
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There was a time I’d kill off a 30 pack of keystone light a night, sometimes I’d grab a 40 ounce or two if that wasn’t enough.
As i got older i slowly lessened my beer intake but it seemed to affect me in a different way…id get drunk quicker , black out easier… so i was just drinking a six pack of pbr 16 ouncers on average…but not very often was i average lol
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Yeah it’s insane when i look back on it…
I mean, i wouldn’t drink 30 sodas, or 30 Ice teas…
I’m just glad my liver still functions!
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I’m 6 days sober! It sounds like we all have some similar history. I’ve always drank but was able to stop after one or two. Over the last few years as I have gotten older I have discovered that one or two drinks leads to 4 5 6 and ultimately I end up finishing everything that I have in the house or until I pass out. I also over the last year have tried to cut back by buying smaller bottles but that hasn’t helped. Now it’s time to face reality and not drink at all.
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Exactly!! We would never dream of drinking 30 sodas in a day! Put some alcohol in it and for some reason it was a different story.
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Towards the end I was drinking 10-14 24oz beers just after work (6pm-11pm) but back about 4 years ago I was drinking two handles (1500ml) a night along with smoking about a 1/8 of weed and taking a Shit load of adderal and that eventually led to other substances but to answer your question
1500ml in an 8-10hr period…
Just kidding just did that math and ~709ml in 24oz so times 12= 8,508ml in one night for about 6 months
Well where should I start lol
I remember being in highschool and getting into my parents beers and Margaritas.I recall stealing alcohol from my friends liquor cabinet one time.Ive actually never told anyone about that.Anywho at partys I’d drink whatever I could get if we could get anything …once I was there I’d flirt, make friends with strangers to get more.
In my 20s when the bar scene came around I was WORSE.now I was allowed to get alcohol, as much as I wanted, so I’d order as many as I wanted until friends wanted to leave.
Well I realized they started to judge how many I’d drink then I discovered I could drink by myself before I got to their place.Real smart!!NOT.
I realized that didn’t make anything better so I stopped going out as much and would buy beers and drink them by myself.Started with just a few I’d say 3 or 4 then suddenly a 6 pack.Id hop in the car 2 or 3 beers into my 6 pack buy another 6 pack and maybe a tall can or two telling myself I’d just pick one or the other…next thing I know I’m waking up with empty bottles hidden all over the place.Drunk me is an IDIOT, AN ASSHOLE, and LUNATIC.
Embarassing black out drunk and picking fights is how it always ended.
Not to mention drinking at work. I’d sneak full sized beers in or ciders mixed with soda.
I am typing this like wow I can’t even pretend I don’t have a problem…I should NEVER drink again.
So I guess 6-14 depending on when I started.
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Oh I also really liked to watch my favorite shows so I couldn’t remember anything the next day, or movies I wanted to see so I could forget I ever put them on…yup the good old days…NOT.lol
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Very well…so we’ll they called me cava after my choice of tipple. Started off a teetotal athlete then in 2002 self medicated on red wine. Hated the taste but it blocked out the pain. At the start half a bottle did the trick. Then needed more and more. I’d over buy just so as I didn’t end up short and not anaesthtised. If I fell short of the buzz I’d go and get some more. Walking down the aisle thinking why am I being controlled? Wake up in the morning feeling remorse…not being able to run with my dog…stinking of booze and then trying to teach. When you can’t remember having that conversation or sending the text and when it stops your life in its tracks…it’s time to know it on the head. At the end I was doing 2 bottles of cava and 2 beers a night until I passed out
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I used to drink 2 bottles of wine if I was broke…or I’d polish about 12 beer a day. Man I don’t miss that!!