Been on my trial day for my new job today and i start in four weeks. My anxiety has gone off now am eating lots off food constantly hungry witch is good. Feeling very happy almost 15 days soba bring on another sober weekend with my loved ones.
Hi @Steviefoster . Sounds like your trial day went well if you are starting in 4 weeks ā¦ well done! Everyone gets anxious starting a new jobā¦ but better doing it soberā¦ keep it going mate
Congratulations on the new job! And your sobriety
Trying to get used to my new meds which are making me feel funny. Regretting therapy later because I went on a special bender over the weekend and pissed off the wife again. Trying to find strength somewhere.
Thats another reason why i want to stay sober i might actually be able to hold on to a decent relationship. Hope things get better. Yea i have had to hand my notice in at my job now witch is 4 weeks. I was really suffering with my anxity as i have just come off my meds i have been on cor 8 years and giving up the drink also been a massive challenge
Look inside of yourself for that strength not not around youā¦you got it in there, just have to let it outā¦be well.
Congratulations on getting the job Stevie. Plus for you, and more incentive to stick with it.
Thanks guys means alot
What the fuck is wrong with meā¦
I get an extreme amount of stress and feel overwhelmed and my natural impulse is to say āFUCK ITā and literally fuck up my own world in any self destructing way possible.
Literally filled with anger right now and itās pointless. Iām sick n tired of being this person. Bc in the end Iāll just hurt everyone I love.
I know the feeling and i know how hard it is but you really need to find another way of letting out your anger reaching for the bottle and getting pissed out our brains only hold the anger in then your 20 times worse you dont get rid of whats inside.try going to a meeting or hitting the gym or running something to get them endorphins going. Your the only person who can change who you are or who yoh wanna be
My flight or fight response is to self destruct. Like a petulant little child not getting his way. Itās fucking tearing my life apart
You need to find someone close out of the drinking environment some one you can talk to when your like this if your on your own. Your going to be your own worse enemy
Hey pal, Do you ever meditate? It has really changed my life. I listen to this one often: https://youtu.be/wm1t5FyK5Ek
Ok I know this sounds kind of stupid but it works for me. When I get raging I make myself come up with ten slang words for vagina in my head and either I think of one that makes me giggle or by the time I get to ten Iāve calmed a bit. Sorry if thatās inappropriate lol
Iām going to try that.
No I hardly ever take time to sit quietly. I am doing self reflecting right now but not meditating
Iām with a sober friend right now and Iām at the inpatient rehab doing paperwork.
Itās worth a try. I like guided meditations. Three are many on YouTube or free apps. Daily meditative meditation really helps my moods generally and also is a good go-to wheni am upset.
im so sleepy today and my heart hurts and eyes tooš£
I need it bc if I donāt watch my anger Iām gonna wind up dead or back in prison.