Now you can pay my house payment for me 
I got my pills super cheap. Back in my heroin days it was a$150 a day habit
I thought my only issue was not being able to control how much I drink ONCE I started drinking but I was WRONG. My body craves it even though Iâm sober. I was right and my husband was wrong. I am an addict. Todayâs craving is definitely worse than yesterdayâs. Ughhhh gotta keep myself busy with something!!! 
I completely understand where you are, I have gotten to that full alcoholic state drinking everyday. My boyfriend I mentioned in my post is a drinker too, in my opinion he has a problem but he disagrees.
I reached out to this group and my uncle a recovering alcoholic to talk to him about he got sober. I want to try meetings and a sponsor.
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Donât give in. You have little ones looking up at you. Show them how strong you are. My counselor in rehab always asked me, is this your life or is it drugs life? Pick one and stick with it. You can do it girl look at all the people who are behind you. You got a army behind you! You can get this. 
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@Mamaisstrong I totally can relate. I was trying to get my cousin to understand my problem on my recent visit to Mexico. She said She had two bad experiences and from then on decided to listen to her limits. I told her thatâs not the case for me. Once Iâm buzzed itâs like a chase to not let the buzz go away and boom Iâm drunk and ready to party. So I got drunk to show her lol. Trying to explain my problem to another friend was similar. He said I donât think you getting drunk every once in awhile is a problem. Youâre letting loose. Well, it is a problem if YOU identify it as one. And it seems like you do. I know I have a problem. That was my first step, admitting it. From that point on it doesnât really matter if others agree. However, it may be difficult for you to quit with your husband who also drinks. There are many things you can do to try to have him âunderstandâ. But alcoholism isnât the person on the corner with a brown paper bag covering booze. Itâs anyone, and we are everywhere. Helping him see that alcohol leaves you feeling psychologically bruised and physically drained that it is affecting your ability to parent may be a good step. I hope today is treating you well and I am here if you need anyone to talk to.
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Thank you everyone for the support. This community is truly amazing. Day 4 today, I was extremely tired all day. I had pretty bad anxiety last night, toss and turned for close to 3 hours and didnât sleep very well. So, I slept in this morning since todayâs my husbandâs off day. We went to the pool with the kids had a blast. Old me wouldâve brought some beer or wine with me but thatâs not me anymore. Then we went to a mexican restaurant. My husband ordered a strawberry margarita as usual and I ordered a virgin one. It feels so good to be ME all the time, not the drunk me. Everything is clear 
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Any chance he would go to see a family counselor with you? Maybe if you express yourself to the counselor in a way that they totally understand your addiction if he hears it from a professional who is objective he might start taking it seriously. Itâs itâs just a thought and Iâll continue to hope for you and pray for you
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Atta girl. Be proud of what youâre doing. Youâre kicking ass!!
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Day 6! I donât have as much cravings but my mind started to playing tricks. Iâm going on a vacation in 2 weeks and my mind is telling me âdrinking only on vacations might be fine, you deserve itâ. NOPE NOPE. Go away old me 
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Yesterday was my day 8. I went out to eat dinner at my friendâs newly opened restaraunt and all of my drinking friends were there. My friend, the owner offered me a free drink and was in shock after I told her I quit drinking 
. I stayed there for good 4hrs, surrounded by friends that I used to drink with and I still stayed sober 
. Cold beer looked sooo good and I was so tempted but I somehow managed not to drink. It definitely felt good to wake up this morning without a hangover 
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Great job mama!!
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Today is the day 30! Still going strong. Didnât drink while on vacation, and now my husband takes me seriously for sure!!!
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Nice pal!! What a Huge accomplishment!
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Well done Mama!!!
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Kick ass on your 30 days. That went fast
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60 is a good hunk of sober time. When I started that seemed like an eternity. You should be very proud @Mamaisstrong.
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Where have you been?!?! Good job female You made me proud
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