Hi Gretchen, welcome here!
Your story looks a lot like mine back in my old days. I turned my life around with the help of this app and the people in it.
It’s a very supportive forum and there’s a lot of information to find about how to quit and how to mantain it.
What helped me a lot was to make a sober plan. I shall share mine so you can see what I mean:2 years sober and what helped me to get there: There is also a lot of good reading for you to find here:What's YOUR plan? I’m glad you find us Gretchen, change is coming! You just decided you deserve a better life, and you do!
It’s doable!
Ps if you have any questions, feel free to ask! I know this forum and how it all works can be a bit overwhelming in the beginning 