It’s wonderful that you are here and I hope you find strength within this group and I strongly urge you to find some support groups within your own community things such as AA, lifering, church, and where I live we have a thing called Phoenix multi sport which is things like yoga, hiking, rock climbing, etc… for people who are sober.
I’m glad you are reconnecting with god too. Before I opened my heart, mind, and soul to my higher power I didn’t know there was a way to be sober that just wasn’t white knuckling it. Remember that despite our hardships in life we are constantly surrounded by gifts that god gives us, we just often ignore them. Something I find very helpful is to make a list of 10 things I am grateful for every day. They don’t have to be huge it can be as simple as “I had a good cup of coffee this morning”. I hope to hear more from you as you continue this journey. I promise it will be worth it.