The only thing that matters is joining one; each meeting has its own feel and you can “shop around” & try different ones. The key thing is attending.
Don’t be shy about bringing your son if you want. People in recovery are parents too and I say it’s good for kids to see their parents facing the challenge.
There’s some links here:
Online meeting resources
Your “addict voice” will try to trick you: “you’ve been good, you’ve got it, a couple drinks is no biggie”; “I need something to calm me down”; etc etc. We all know it.
Stand firm. Even if you have to create a thread here and post every few minutes to get through. Even if you have to join another meeting. Even if you have to bake 100 cookies, more cookies than you could ever eat, just to keep yourself busy. Take baths, watch Netflix, whatever - and then when your head hits the pillow sober, you’ve won today.
It will be hard at first. It gets easier with practice. Take it one day at a time.
You’re a good person and a good mother Judy. You deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 