I used this app a while back but never got the hang of it.
Almost 5 years of trying to be alcohol free and I am still binging and feeling worse daily.
I can’t afford therapy.
I just need some emotional support.
11 Likes
Welcome Back…
What can I do…?
3 Likes
I don’t know what I need. Just know I’m in a bad place.
3 Likes
Hi @4649Tobeme-now, welcome back to the forum!
I am pretty sure people on here would love to help you where possible, do you want to tell us a bit more about your experiences and struggles?
For now, please be assured that you are absolutely not alone in failing to maintain sobriety. Many of us have tried and failed so many times that we have lost count - what matters is that you keep trying and one day it will stick!
6 Likes
OK… you are here. I assume want to get sober are stay sober today… Let 's make a plan…No alcohol today from this point forward. Have you ever tried a program like AA? I highly recommend it. Lots of online and in person (free) recovery options out there.
6 Likes
I have tried repeatedly to get out of this spin cycle.
Today is 42nd Wedding Anniversary to a man I adore. He is the one who makes the booze runs. I don’t blame him. I keep suggesting it.
I talked to Dr. She suggested I might need to talk to someone. That’s all I got.
I started on Naltrexone and am hopeful for a positive outcome. Yesterday was not a good day.
3 Likes
Congratulations on your wedding anniversary! My story is similar. It harder to get sober when you’re other half is your drinking buddy but it can be done. Keep it simple today. One moment at time. Just get your head to the pillow sober tonight. Your sobriety is truly your own journey.
2 Likes
Welcome back, and Happy Anniversary.
What works for you? Me for example, if I want to do something, I find it helpful to write things down. Physically write (not type) , if it flows from my hand to paper it helps. Or a note on a whiteboard. Piece of paper on the fridge etc.
Write down that today I will not drink. And that’s your goal for today. Have it on your fridge, or on the door of where your alcohol is stored (better yet, if you can get rid of any alcohol - I know that is hard to do if your partner drinks).
When today is done and you have stuck to that, take that note and keep it aside, store it in a jar, something. Write a new one tomorrow, don’t reuse today’s.
Mights sound silly, but it depends on what works for you.
Check in with us here daily, tell us how you are getting on, ask for help whenever you need it.
3 Likes
I’m glad you’re here 
let’s work on the next 24 hours for now! Spend time here reading people’s stories, you’ll find many people in the same boat and many people who have come out the other sidr. It might feel scary, like you’ll be missing a big part of your life if you stop drinking. For me, it was like waking up.
2 Likes
Hey,
If you need some help and I can assist, I am here. What is helping me to stay sober is thinking about what I gain and what I lose if I drink. I could go to party and drink, or drink at home but how I will feel tomorrow, with hangover and the feeling that I am again on the same bad path of drinking. But if I manage to skip drinking today/on this party/with my friends or family, I would be proud of myself tomorrow and I would feel strong as a person because I am doing something that is very difficult and everyday that I manage to be without alcohol is a real win.
Also what makes me do it is when I think like this “ok you can drink everyday, no one is stopping you, but your will is not to drink and just your decision”
Whenever I forced myself not to drink I felt pressure, but when I think I can drink but I don’t want to because I want to discover who am I when I am sober it feels a bit easier. Just my thoughts
Good luck, write if I can assist somehow
3 Likes
Welcome to day 2, @4649Tobeme-now, you are doing wonderfully well! 
On top of the great advice given by others already, I was thinking you may find this thread helpful to give you some pointers on how to approach sobriety and recovery in the days, weeks and months ahead:
Keep up the good work, we’re all rooting for you!
1 Like
Hey meschelle
Congrats on the wedding anniversary!
I took naltrexone for a while and personally found it transformative as I could no longer get a high from alcohol so there was no point.
Unfortunately for me, the side effects were too much, but for most people they are negligible.
Some countries offer it in the form of a once per month injection which is much better as you cannot “forget” to take the medication and have a drink. Naltrexone stays in the body a while mind you so if you miss one dose it still has an effect, albeit not as much.
I hope you get on well with it, as though it divides opinion here, there have been many members who have had success with it
1 Like
Why do you think you drink?
We’re all still here and ready to help, you just gotta make the first move and be ready to help yourself on a daily basis.
I used to sit on here for hours every day bc tbh what is the alternative.
This community saves lives or at the very least it saved mine.
1 Like
That’s a really good question. I have asked myself that repeatedly.
Not because I like the taste or wasting my $$.
How do I follow the thread?
Welcome on board Meschelle. I’m glad you’re here again. Have a good read around the threads and see what sticks with you. For me this forum was a game changer in the long run. It didn’t stick on first approach and took me a couple of years but now I’m finally on the right pass.
Sending love and strength your way and happy belated anniversary to you and your hubby 
Good luck 
Let’s go on for the next 24 hours SOBER together 
1 Like
I did that yesterday and this morning.
Love the idea!
I already have a special jar to keep these notes in. Can’t wait to fill it!
2 Likes
Looking forward to seeing a photo of it when it’s filled. 
1 Like