Yesterday my Dad passed away. I had spoken to him last on the 17th of April and he sounded happy and was ready to start a new treatment. Last night I had seen I had missed a call from him, it was actually his wife trying to reach me. I looked at his call and thought “I’ll call him tomorrow”
I hate cancer so much! I spent the last two years pretending my dad wasnt as sick as he was. I’m glad we had a good last conversation and something pulled me to talk to him even though he upset me. The last conversation I told him he was going to be fine and he has at least 5 more years:sob:
I’m sick I couldn’t have been by his side. I’m just so lost right now
I’m sorry for your loss. None of it is your fault. I think you can certainly grieve and sit in your sadness in the immediate, but be kind to yourself. Love and light
Big hugs. I’m so sorry. I’m glad you talked to him when you did. Cry your tears and grieve your grief. This will be one of the hardest losses you will ever have. You will get through one day at a time. I’m sorry cancer stole him away.
So sorry for your loss. I agree with what others have said, let go of what is/was not in your control. I’m glad you’re here for support as you process your grief - keep reaching out, that’s why many of us are here, to be supportive and get support in our turn.
My heart goes out to you! I completely understand, I lost my mom in January, and my father 2 yrs ago to multiple cancers. I wish I had words of wisdom to make your grief more tolerable. Personally, I found most of my comfort spiritually. It still hurts. I can tell you numbing the pain never helps, and will only make the pain more profound later. Virtual hug! Be safe and take care of yourself!
Oh sweetheart, I’m so sorry. I’m so glad you had an amazing, positive, conversation with him, so that he is able to move on in his next journey with no bad vibes from here. Please continue to reach out to us on here and know he is now an extra support in your sober journey. Hugs
