Relapses sucks, they drain you out I know. I had a few myself…Untill I had enough and was willing to try everything 
And that was where the changes started. Me wanting recovery so badly.
Maybe you can use this forum more? And maybe there are more things you aren’t aware of you can add?
When I came here years ago I discovered so many things of my addiction I didn’t know. And also many things that I never thought of that could help me to beat my addiction.
Have you read this for example? What's YOUR plan? ore 2 years sober and what helped me to get there:. Have you tried meetings?
Recovery is trial and error for me. It still is. Getting out of my comfort zone and be here every day to keep myself focussed.
I hope to see you around here more. There is no magic trick ore button to become sober, I wish there was. It’s still work for me, even after more then 5 years sober.
Not saying that you are not working hard, because I don’t know 