Yes. I felt this way for many years, including in my early days in recovery (until I established friendships through my sober groups). I realized eventually that I hadn’t really had any substantial friendships during my addiction years. My addiction was my only friend, my only love, my only everything.
The good news is there’s a way through this. There are lots of sober communities you can join, here on Talking Sober and also in recovery groups - there’s a list here: Resources for our recovery
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