I used to feel like that, worthless, useless, unlovable, better off dead. It wasn’t until I went to rehab that I realised it was the addiction talking. They were more reasons to drink, I isolated, I had suicidal ideation. In a matter of days in rehab, my thinking started to change once I knew it wasn’t my normal self thinking all the horrible thoughts! Only on day 149 myself but stopping the drinking is so hard but so fantastic as well.
Loads of people on here to help, I had a wobble last week and got comments from this community. Just know it is possible and good luck with it.
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Your not worthless, did you fuck up, yeah probably. But you can alwaysake money back, and most of the time repair relationships. You might not be able to undo the damage you’re doing to yourself if you keep down this road though. Time to get sober again and start fixing mistakes. You can do this. 
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As others have rightly said, you are not worthelss. You have worth and are worthy of getting help.
Try to be kind to yourself, i know its hard.
Do you have any plans for more structured help? Rehab or 12 step programmes?
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You are not worthless…life is full of intersection and we decide which way we go…see this as an oppurtunity to choose the right path…
We all have both the good and the bad inside of us, i love star wars and compare it to anakin skywalker and darth vador…you can choose the easy path and be darth vador…or you can choose to be anakin skywalker…its a difficult path but the power of true happiness and self love will make your life the most beautiful place to be:smiling_face_with_three_hearts: you have it in you 
remember that we are all here to support you…take care sending you lots of love
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Its really hard dealing with all the repercussions our whims and addictions bring us. These negative feelings from doing things poorly may seem like we’re worthless, but thats often just our mind tormenting us. Sounds like you need help so you can get to some stability in your life. You deserve a life where your happiness, relationships, finances and sense of well being isnt ripped out from under you by an alter ego on a binder. So far it seems clear that drinking will lead to more harm in every sense of the word… id check out some Gamblers Anonymous, AA type of programs and if possible even some counseling! Dealing with these problems is the only way theyll get better imo and i know you deserve a better life, because you have worth and beauty, its just under a lil muck right now, but like a lotus blossom many beautiful things grow in the muck with enough work and love.
Take care
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We can’t change the past. What can you do right now to get back on your sober path (besides putting down the drink)? Have you read that Allen Carr book you posted about? Have you considered a program? Here’s a link if your interested. Resources for our recovery
Recovery is hard work but definitely worth it. I got a few 24s under my belt but I still make sure to do something recovery related every single day.
Willingness, opened mindedness and honesty are the 3 key components to getting and staying sober.
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I totally get where you are. I’ve been there myself. I’ve said the same things, “I am worthless. I hate myself.” I can tell you as someone who has been there, those statements come from a place deep set in your addiction cycle. Those words and the feelings they stir made me drink. It was only when I came to full acceptance that I am an alcoholic that my pity party ended and I got serious about getting help. Any other disease or problem, I throw myself in to fixing things, but I never did with alcohol until I fully accepted that the problem wasn’t that I was worthless and awful- it was that I am an alcoholic. You aren’t worthless and deserving of hate. You are an addict. Luckily there are loads or places to get support and tools. This place has helped me tremendously.
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You are NOT worthless!!! I know you’re in a tough spot right now, but here’s the way you can look at things, make this be rock-bottom, that way, there’s only one way to go and that is up. I can tell you for certain about gambling if you just don’t gamble today, tomorrow when you wake up, you won’t be any lower. Same is true is drinking, just make it through today without touching either one of those, and tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life! You can do it! Best wishes.
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My friend, listen, you are not worthless, you are more valuable than you can imagine.
Put the shovel down, it’s time to stop digging. Today can be your first day in recovery and you have all of us to support you.
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How are you feeling now Sarah?xx
You are not worthless and everyone makes mistakes.it’s time for a positive comeback. You can definitely do this.
What actions have you taken to stop drinking, gambling and to improve your mental health?
You can do it, I keep hitting bottom, myself, it’s horrible, but I believe we can do it strength sent to you
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Thank you everyone for the replies. I’m sat drinking tea and yep I think this is my rock bottom. My arm and leg are hurting where I cut myself. My partner has gone to work (we’re supposed to be off this week) and he informed me last night that I was screaming and crying Saturday night and my daughter heard it all. I’m so worried that she will be traumatised by that and I also don’t know if my partner will leave me or not. But I do know that this is absolutely the end of drinking for me. I can’t control it and it’s got to stop whatever else happens.
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Hey Sarah, been thinking about u alot…im with you. How old is your daughter?whats done is done its what you do now that matters…stay on here lets us all talk it through xx
Hi, she’s 13 on Wednesday. I’m so upset, I’ve messed everything up
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Your not well Sarah, ive been where u are, i understand, it may not seem like it at the moment but none of this is unsolvable. I think for now get back to basics and focus on those…have you eaten anything? Are u hydrated?Does your arm and leg need any professional attention? Maybe make an appointment with your doctor to discuss where you are…where you in touch with anyone with regards to your sobriety?xx
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My cuts look bad but they are ok, I’ve got plasters on. I’ve had half a chocolate biscuit and water and tea.
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I had started at AA but haven’t been for a couple of weeks. I met a lovely lady there who has texted me asking me to to another meeting with her but I haven’t replied
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