Hi Everyone! I am on Day 1 again for the millionth time. I took my first drink at age 11 and have only had a few breaks from it over the past 7 years. Unfortunately only when I almost died in the hospital and other times when I was too sick to drink. Before these past 7 years I mostly binge drank but I still had one /two almost every day. I am now 58 years old. My face is showing the abuse and I have hair loss. Not to mention what is going on inside of my body. I suffered traumatic events in my early teen years and in my adulthood started therapy and many antidepressants and anxiety drugs which I remain on. Every day I wake up tell myself that today is the day I will quit and the later I get in the day I start to reason with all the excuses and I drink again. My adult daughter and younger sister both quit all alcohol and admitted that it was mostly due to the abuse that I had with alcohol. Alcoholism runs in my family on both sides. I am just so ashamed to be here again after failing at every attempt to quit. You are all such heroes to me and I want to share success with you as well. I am not very technical and am not sure exactly how to navigate this site but I am trying 
. I would love to hear from you and would appreciate any and all help you could offer. Thanks for being here.
Welcome Jen,
As along as you keep trying you havnt given up. I will congratulate you for reaching out and for being here, being a hero yourself 
i have had i dont know how many resets, but im still here and the support is amazing 
for me as soon as yesterday had total crisis about having ruined my life ill turn 30 in december and many have told me that change now and you will have 2/3 of your life left (hopefully, since i dont know the end date 
). So its so amazing if i may say so to see a personen wanting a new life at your age - makes my whining yesterday unnecessary - so thank you for that wanting to see my post search for: ruined life. If you ever need someone to chat with feel free to contact me i wish you the best on your journey and thanks for being here.
Hi Jen; I’m so glad you’re here! I reset (resat, lol) a few times as well and it’s that niggling voice when you least expect it that says it’s 5 o’clock somewhere. I KNOW it’s a very convincing bitch. I’m only going on day 48 but I’m here to tell you (as an elder here, lol) it is SO worth it! Skin, hair and weight loss are better already, as just some side perks.
Please reach out whenever you want. 
I was just like you.
I I was telling myself today is my last day of using but again and again I was using.
Throw all your drugs out of the house.
You only need food and water.
Throw all your drugs.
No matter how painful it is.
You will not die.
You only need food and water.
And the urge will go .
Trust me.
If I can do it you can also do it.
Thank you all for your wonderful responses! I am looking forward to day 1 of my new life! Thank you all for being here!
Throw all your drugs out of the house.
No matter how painful it is.
You will not die.
Because humans only need food, water, oxygen,
Idk why are we putting drugs in our bodies.
Just throw this poison.
If I can do it you can also do it.
Trust me.
Welcome Jen. Keep coming back and communicating with us, you can’t do this alone. We’re all here to support each other on good and bad days. Pls dig deep and do this for you and your health. I got sober about 7 months ago and tried to convince my husband to do it with me. He finally gave in 2 months ago and good thing he did because his blood tests came back from recent dr visit, and he now has diabetes. He’s 55 and never had a health problem in his life until alcohol got out of control. The sugar in the alcohol destroyed him. Now he’s fighting to get back to “normal”. This disease kills.
Hi Lisa. I am so sorry to hear about your husband. My heart goes out to you both. I am so proud of your success and want so badly to reach a timeline like yours. I made it through Day 1. It was so hard. But I am on my way to Day 2 and hopeful. Thank you so very much for your kind words of support. I need all the help I can get.
Yay!! Well done on day 1 Jen. I know how hard this is and I’m so proud of you. We’re all here cheering you on. Don’t hesitate to reach out if you’re struggling. There’s a great saying from a longtime member on here…“never crave alone”.
Join us on the check in thread which is a great form of accountability. Here’s the link:
Checking in daily to maintain focus #11
Thank you again Lisa! I am in awe of how powerful this community is and plan to be a part of it and eager to make it to many milestones in my future