It is important to feel connected during recovery and that is why meetings or recovery groups are so essential if you don’t have any other form of support at home. A in real life connection with others going through the same thing.
You made it to 30 days - do you know what caused you to relapse? Use the strength and the tools you have acquired and get back to your day 1.
I find that being active here and checking in daily (sometimes multiple times in a day) and practicing gratitude really helps keep me positive and sober.