Welcome back Nathan 
You probably need to add something to your toolkit, to keep your balance and keep moving forward. We tend to âromanticizeâ our addictions and we imagine that thereâs something to like about them - we get these ârosy memoriesâ of âgood timesâ and âgood feelingsâ and we start to think, âWell maybe I can have a bit without the negative partsâ.
Addiction lies to us. Itâs that little devil on your shoulder. Time to kick him to the curb. He gives nothing to you; nothing. There isnât a single person whoâs worked a recovery and built a life, who wants anything related to their addiction. It just seems crazy once youâve found what your life can be without it.
Take care and donât give up. Check out some recovery groups Resources for our recovery and keep an open mind. One day at a time