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Hercules, Hercules! 
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I don’t know the show, I just chose a clapping gif 
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Way to go!!! So proud of you! Must feel amazing! 
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Great job on ur 1 week!!!
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I’m proud of myself, and I’m trying to remember to breath! I keep thinking don’t fuck up tomorrow, but I’m coming back to the present—I need to protect right now! 
How are you doing, my friend?!
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Yes absolutely!! U have the right form of thinking there friend 
I am doing a bit better than I was earlier. I have been struggling a bit with my mental health (just not having my routine in place… its amazing how much routine helps me). But this too shall pass. I just want my little guy to feel better
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I’m this complicated dichotomy of rules based/don’t tell me what to do.
I want to know what I can and cannot do, just don’t tell me when or how to do them. Also, don’t give me a schedule, I’ll make my own schedule, which will look almost identical to yours. ODD at its finest.
Any slight deviation from my routine would throw me out of balance.
Now, I’m getting so used to chaos that I don’t know how I’d respond to the security of a routine.
I hope your little blessed one feels better too! Blessings over your whole family, in the name of Jesus!
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51 days PMO-free
2 days smoke-free
That’s right y’all… I made it to 2 days of not smoking! Not only that, the timer keeps ticking away.
Last night into this morning was incredibly stressful. I found out some important and potentially life-altering news. My anxiety shot into space 
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But… I didn’t smoke.
Let me repeat that:
I didn’t smoke
I was able to turn it around; I reached into my figurative bag of tools and skills, riffled through them, and utilized the ones I needed.
Was it perfect? No.
Could I have done it better and more efficiently? Yes.
But who cares?!
I didn’t smoke!
I didn’t run to porn!
I am facing this sober and I’m proud of myself. It was the boost I needed to get through today sober. Because I just have today; just for today.
So, now that the weather is warming up, I am able to paint again. I’m rewarding myself by sitting by my favorite candle, sucking on a lollipop, and painting.
Pats self on back: good job, me.
Pats the air like a crazy person: good job, St. Joseph
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Well done! Every little victory is like a spade of dirt thrown on the top of your addiction, rotting in a coffin.
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Wow, congrats! Two days without smoking is awesome! Keep on going, my friend!
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52 days PMO-free
3 days smoke-free 
I was so close to buying cigarettes this morning. SO CLOSE
But, I didn’t.
I don’t have to listen to all of my thoughts. Most of them are shit and self-sabotaging anyway.
I’m not doing well emotionally. I’m struggling so much and so deeply. But, I jumped out of bed and flew into the shower. I threw a patch on before I could justify buying cigarettes with that excuse. Then, I took some hydroxyzine and my morning medicine, grabbed my rosary, and went for a walk.
I’m so glad that I did.
I’m still struggling. I’m struggling with a lot; primarily with loneliness. Not having friends I can go to during this time only amplifies my isolation. So, I walked and talked with my Heavenly Mama. Did it help? Yes…enough. It helped me recover enough of my values to remember that smoking doesn’t help nor resolve anything.
I have a bunch on my plate today. I 
don’t want to do 90% of it. But, I’m not a child and can get away with having a temper tantrum. So, I’m trudging along with my day trying to do so joyfully. I have health, I can walk, I have shelter (and hopefully will continue to), and so many more blessings. I will take my day one bite at a time.
If I choke, luckily my guardian angel knows the Heimlich maneuver. 
I pray everyone has a beautiful day.
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Congrats on your day 3 without smoking! You’re doing so well, keep it up, man!
Sorry to hear you’re feeling lonely. I can relate because I don’t have real friends either. I live alone and I don’t see anyone except my counselors. I can’t see my kids anymore because I fucked up the relationships with them. So, my isolation is also real like yours and even though I feel occasionally lonely, I have succeeded to be alone. Not completely though, but enough just to survive and enjoy the little things in my life. Day 3, you’re crushing it! Day 4, keep it coming, my friend!
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Yes 3 Days is great
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I’ve had a lifetime of broken relationships. The majority of them didn’t have to do with me; albeit I took it personally. The ones that did, however, were my fault. I didn’t know how to foster and maintain healthy relationships. For the most part, the other person (or group of people) were resources. I had to learn how to break away from using them as limerent objects. Through many years of therapy I’ve learned how to do that; yet, it doesn’t seem to be enough. I used to believe I wasn’t enough… sometimes that thought creeps back in and I really have to wrestle it away before I believe it again. That’s a very easy one for me to believe. Most the time I feel cursed. So, since I can’t share my friendship with others, I’m going to give myself what I’d have given away. That’s a part of my sobriety. Learning how to be my own best friend.
How are you doing today? Genuinely.
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Too much Energy.
Dont know what i should do. With Alcohol and PMO i was Out of this Feeling.
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What a great thing it is to be able to identify what your feeling, thinking, and experiencing.
Rearrange your furniture.
Do something physical that will help release that energy in a way that will help your sobriety and give you that dopamine hit you’re looking for.
If that’s too close to temptation, then go outside and walk or run.
That always helps me.
Getting out and walking.
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Wise words, my friend. This day has been pretty good compared to the two weeks I wrestled with a relapse and psych ward tour. I feel safe at home and like you, walking helps. Are you doing rosary walks or just walks?
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Psych ward tours
I say I’m working on my frequent flyer miles.
I will do both. Sometimes I will pray the rosary while I walk, other times I just think and feel and get out until I’m too tired to do anything other than sit down, and sometimes I do both.
I’m glad that you are feeling safe at home. That’s been a big deal for you in the past. Can you identify what’s changed?
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Your walks sounds awesome. I’m so happy for you that your faith is so strong. Do you attend a Mass regularly?
It’s hard to identify what has changed. But I’m more motivated to stay sober than ever before and I’m trying my best to focus on positive little things in my life. I’m also starting cognitive therapy in some point in the spring or summer, my care team is working on it. Today I talked with one of the counselors and she helped me to realize very deeply that mistakes are just human, everyone makes them. So, maybe one of the major reasons I feel safe is that I can finally take my sobriety and life one day at a time, not trying to achieve everything right away and then feeling overwhelmed. I’m bipolar and borderline, so one of the challenges has been how to live with those diagnoses. But my meds are working and I’m working everyday to stay positive and humble. After all, life is good and time will heal all the wounds. ODAAT.
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