Hm. I don’t think spending time w your kids is a solid recovery plan. I can see why you’re nervous about what’s going to happen.
Meetings should move from a probably to a definitely.
Pick a few resources from here Resources for our recovery
Like two three at a time and really immerse yourself in recovery 24/7.
Also being active on here is keeping long term members sober. Use the magnifying glass to find relevant subjects for you. So much info and knowledge on here.
Like this one What’s YOUR plan?
Make a plan. Stick to it. Odaat.