I think you should create 2 separate timers in the app. One for alcohol & one for cocaine. That way you can reset the alcohol timer but keep the cocaine timer.
You need to decide whether you’re an alcoholic, or whether you’re a drug addict, or both. Then you need to decide if you really want to stop. An addict cannot have “a little” without resetting, because “a little” always turns into more. (Maybe not immediately after, but soon enough), because one justification turns into another. I’ve learned that over many years of constant relapses where I kept saying “just a little, this once, I can stop any time, I’m not really an addict”. I was lying to myself.
If alcohol isn’t an issue for you, then why bother to track it at all? If alcohol turns into drugs, & you want to stop doing drugs, then obviously alcohol is an issue as well, even if it’s not the primary issue.
There’s a chart online called “the addiction cycle”. In the “fantasizing” stage we want to relapse but we know we shouldn’t, so we find little-slipUps that we can pretend are okay in order to weaken our defenses. Once our defenses are down we go into the next stage which is relapse.
Good luck, you can do this!
I’m at 16 days sober & wanted to relapse right now, but came here looking for help. After reading your post I thought writing about my own lies to myself might help both of us. Stay strong!
im not but i just don’t think its worth me resetting the clock off a half of a shot so what i was saying is its not like I just did Hella lines which is my real addiction
that’s absolutely right i do need to seperate timers i didn’t even know i could make to seperate timers thank u…but yea my problem is cocaine but if i drink alcohol or go hard with alcohol im gone adventually want a line your so right
Also, think ahead right now about if you would reset after 1 line or only for multiple lines. Your writing sounds like you wouldn’t want to reset if it was only 1. You’d better decide that now, otherwise when the temptation comes you’ve already rationalized that “only 1” is okay & your defenses will cave in quick. In my experience an addict can never stop at 1.
that’s TRUE i know i would never go back to coke i was making a point but it didnt come out right but i cant say i won’t have a drink from time to time because that wasent my problem.but until i can get the addiction of cocaine out my system i dont need to drink because i know i will have that tingling sensation for cocaine
I agree that completely sober living is the right thing to do for now at least, alcohol seems to be the gateway and our brains have long memories, we don’t kill all those brain cells through our abuse.
If you drink those receptors will start telling you you have cocaine next, it takes a long time if it’s at all possible to detangle this.
Being brutally honest I’m not sure if it’s if ever possible.
I set my timer for alcohol. I’m 22 days sober. I plan on quitting nicotine soon. I’ll have a separate timer for that. I don’t consider nicotine as part of sobriety, but I’d consider weed (if I did weed).
If you are trying to be sober, anything that intoxicates would effect sobriety. No cold medicine with alcohol, etc. I’ve never been addicted to narcotics, haven’t used recreationally since 1983. Not sure how I’d handle it if a doctor perscribed something for temporary pain.
But you have to decide what sober is for you. My counter says alcohol. If I have a single drop, I’m reseting.
That is EXACTLY how I relapsed the first time… oh just a little won’t hurt… fast forward to 3 weeks ago when I was so messed up I couldn’t remember shit that happened the day before smh
thank u all for the support and concerns im resetting my alcohol timer but i will b keeping my cocaine timer as is because I’ve been clean from the cocaine i really appreciate you guys reaching out and helping me relize whats right and wrong I appreciate u guys you guys are the true meaning of support:kissing_heart:
To me that seems like the “resoning” all of us have done that leads to full on relapse.
Now me, I was never around drugs,met a guy,got into crack,lots of it,then it moved on to meth, shooting,got so sick from various illnesses I died in the ER room of the hospital, 3 blood clots left leg,walking pneumonia, (half lung on right side) Brown recluse bite,and what else, oh yeah MSRA look it up,I’m literally supposed to be dead! 3 months in hospital on life support,lost everything.
I was never going back,met another serious boyfriend at first could say no,at first could go to sleep ignore him,smoke a little then be done, sure enough it got me again and it took 3 years to leave him,clean for 116 days now, and still think of it almost all the time,so I’d always hit reset when active cause To me there’s no saying no going back,I’ve done that.
Just know my dumb ass is always here for you,I’ve struggled through it,and still going.
Love ya.
Oh yeah, this my leg, that’s because I had a UNDIAGNOSED BONE INFECTION for two years,I have a similar scar pattern up near my hip butt area,and now a heart murmmer, you can fuck yourself up real quick,message me ANY time you need to,I I’ll listen…
omg u are a true survivor and im so happy u been clean that lone and yea it sucks that we all try to get clean but we still think about it and now im starting to have dreams of me doing coke its like do the devel wanna c me fuck up that bad he’s coming into my dreams
It’s benign I didn’t notice a thing my chubby scarred ass bicycles, but not up hills!
I just want you to know your a survivor to,I have dreams about it,I never get high but it’s all there in the dream,including the annoying people I never way to see again!
You can’t play games with yourself. Count sobriety however you want, it’s your life, but bargaining about how much alcohol is okay will not work well. Eventually you’re going to lose that game
I’m curious about the resetting issue. I’m on day 44, but 4 weeks ago I had a terrible flu and my mom made a Haitian remedy that includes honey, lemon and a splash of rum. I was feverish and sick and drank what wad probably equivalent to just over half a shot. I didn’t reset because it wasn’t a “drink” consumed to obtain a buzz. That’s a personal choice, but I feel good about that decision. Additionally, 3 nights ago I went to midnight mass and had a sip of wine at communion – again, I did not reset. Thoughts on this? Is my 44 day count bogus?
