i dont know how anyone is supposed to do this. i cant even breathe im out of breath always at rest i know i have congestive heart failure and it wont get me to stop. i feel sick and tired and my body feels so destroyed but i wake up every morning and the only thought is getting my liquor. how does this even happen i know i dont want to drink anymore but i cant stop this is ridiculous its going to kill me and i know it will cause i know i wont stop
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You are not alone. I cried today for probably the millionth time. Everyone just tells me you have to WANT to quit, but that’s why I cry. It’s so hard to convince myself some days. But maybe if your health isn’t enough then maybe you can look towards something else for that motivation. Either way, in sorry it’s so hard but if you ever need a good distraction, this app is great for that.
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You got this. Cry it out. One day at a time. Do you have any hobbies? Anything that interests you? Maybe look towards that. ** hugs**
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you are right we just dont want to not kill ourselves anymore apparently haha… 
i have no idea how i can so clearly know to stop but i just shrug it off and make my way to the liquor store every morning. i cant even breathe. im out of breath all the time for no reason. ive definitely destroyed my heart.
i guess sometimes i feel like why even stop now ive gotta just be on a countdown at this point. my body feels 40 years older than it is
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I don’t have any advice as I’m just on my day 2 but just want to tell you i am feeling the same. I just want to stop, I hate the way I’m feeling right now but I’m just going to sit here and accept the feeling and NOT drink.
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You are likely physically dependent, and need a supervised detox at this point. Im sorry life has become this horrible for you.
A different day to day existence is possible. You and those around you deserve more peace. 
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my body feels so terrible all the time, like its decades older than it actually is
im not as ive been able to quit for 2 months, 3 months, and a week here a week there over the past year with no withdrawal problems. the problem is always going back
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You really need to consider inpatient rehab at this point. You deserve a better life than this. Alcohol absolutely will kill you if you don’t get some serious help. I will be praying for you.
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I agree with @Minatasha and @LeeHawk. This is serious-you need to seek out inpatient rehab and consult with your physician ASAP.
Oh my bad! Thats easier in some ways and harder in others i guess. I also didnt have physical dependence withdrawls, but am probably still experiencing PAWS 5 months later.
I still think there is hope and a worthwhile life for you! ❤️‍🩹 I wish I had advice or support i know would stick.
I know that urges always pass, and there were many times during urges you can scroll through here, respond to others posts, just do nothing and experience it passing, or distract yourself.
What strategies have worked for you in the past to not give into an urge or impulse? Does it sound good to write a list of reasons to not drink or things you can do instead, to have and reread when you need them?
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cant… i work full time and have a family
This is an amazing app, u start off 5 minutes, 1 hour, ect. U have to start small and set a goal. Figure out what stems ur drinking and ask God to help u. The people here are amazing and have helped me. I’m 90 days, but I used the small steps. 1 second, minutes, hour, day, at a time. God bless u.
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If you have stopped for months or a week even recently then you know you can do this. If you can do 1 day you can do 100 days. Everybody on here felt like they couldn’t do it. You can.
Focus on getting through today. Don’t go to work, stay indoors, watch movies and get through day 1 as day 2 is easier than day 1 and so on. Just focus on getting through today. That’s all you need to do for now. Sending hugs, you deserve to feel better. Don’t give up, we are all here with you willing you on and sending warmth and kindess
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That is your addict mind speaking. The monster that wants you to destroy yourself step by step.
Let me try this angle.
You have a disease… If you don’t get treatment you’ll die eventually.
Lets say you’d have cancer would you get treatment?
Your lucky in a way, for our disease there’s a 12 step program that is free of charge and helped many with the exact thoughts you’re sharing with us. I just made 3 years abstinent with the grace off my fellowship.
Please find a meeting even if you’re still drinking… Just sit and listen, that’s at least one hour you are not drinking.
Good luck!
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Im on day 17 i was where you are. Crying upset ashamed but what i can say is it does get better
Dont think of it as giving up 4 good just keep in mind u won’t drink today that’s all you have to so
Join an online AA group its the best thing ive ever done
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We can only take one day at a time…I agree that you’ll need to probably do a detox under supervision- I did mine last week and it’s something I refused to accept and admit for a long time!
Anything is possible so don’t give up x
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Try a meeting makes it easier to stay sober if you desire it wish you well
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Then you aren’t as bad as you say you are in the original post. You are on your way to death, my friend, if what you described is accurate. Your job and kids won’t matter if you are not here. What you describe is pretty dire.
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I agree 
. There is always hope. I see miracles literally every day. Every. Day.
Mindset is key, mindset is everything in this battle we undergo in the fight for our life. Once I decided that I must, I can, and I will NO MATTER THE COST because if I don’t have recovery then guess what - I don’t and won’t have ANYTHING. Not even my life. Once I decided that recovery became possible. 5 months into it I am in love with my life. It’s far from perfect but the satisfaction and joy I get from living a life worth living is PRICELESS.
If one wants this they must be willing to go to any length to get it and keep it. That passion for recovery will come but it’s just making that first decision to DO something about it. It’s an all in, both feet in, experience. It will not work half assed.
This is the place to start because we are the experts at recovery. We ARE the professionals. You have a lot of people reaching out to you who have been where you are and can lead you through. You just have to make the decision. Let us know how you’re doing and how we can help.
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