Hello all, my name is Brian and I’m from Michigan. I’m married have two wonderful kids and own a business. I inherited some super addictive traits from my mom’s side of the family. Started with pot when I was 15Ish then experimented with about everything. That landed me with a 320mg oxy a day habit. Family jumped in I decided to stop and went through the worst hell imaginable. Spent the only year of my adult life sober that year. Then I started drinking a few beers here and there… 10 years into that now and I’m in deep crap. Takes a 18 or so just to sleep. On top of that all the drinking made me weak and I’m now preparing for opiate withdrawals as well. Thx for having me. I’ll be here quite a bit. This is going to be a bumpy ride!
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Hi. New here. Drinking been a concern since an emotional trauma back in 2002. I didn’t see it at the time but self medicated. Living by myself didn’t help and still doesn’t but alcohol doesn’t help solve that issue. Did 86 days sober but started drinking again a month ago. Hate the feeling of guilt…the lost time…the fact all my dreams and aspirations are anaesthtised. Lost 2 stone in weight after 86 days and entered marathon. Only 1 day sober but glad I found this app. I can empathise with so many comments. Be strong and God bless.
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Hello, I’m new also. I’m 27 and ironically I’m a bartender. I drink almost daily and when I do, I drink until I’m black out drunk. I got into a car accident where I almost died and I don’t remember any of it. That was the biggest slap in the face for me. My family has voiced their concerns and I’m so tired of wasting my life like this. I’m searching for motivation and accountability. Thank you all for sharing your stories. You’re not alone, we can do this together.
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You CAN get through this! My husband is 7 months clean of his porn addiction. There are software’s you can get to help protect yourself from being tempted. Just think of your family, you can do this. THANK YOU for reaching out, it is not easy, but this is where you start. You may have relapsed but don’t let it become a habit again. Chin up! 
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Hello to all my fighter buddies … I am a mariner and during my last vacation home I somehow started using heroin … I have been damaged financially , physically, mentally … Finally decided to stay away from it get medically clear and join back my ship to high seas. … It’s been 5 days m sober .
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Wow five days off, that is fucking amazing. Congratulations on being a miracle, Sir.
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Thank you So much ma’am , and I am sure m not going back to that black hole again … And will stick to Rum only after all god made Rum for sailors . 
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lol, whatever works for you, do just that. I’d kill for even a few hours clean. Maybe if i, too, had some rum, I could put down the meth…
I’m not really sure what to say here. I’m not even sure I am an addict. I don’t have a crazy story about my terrible up bringing or of me with a silver spoon and daddy’s money feeding my habit either really.
My life is average- vanilla even. I am married to my best friend, I have two amazing, funny, sarcastic, beautiful children. I am happy most of the time and I have a pretty good job. I don’t really even know what I am doing here… but I do drink. I drink a lot. Not black out drunk, non functional drunk, but daily, with friends, alone, often.
The longest I have gone alcohol free in the last 2 years …maybe last 5 years come to think of it… is about 9 days. And it was recently. I challenged myself to go 2 weeks without it, but then a friend was moving away and we all went out for drinks and I figured “Well I don’t really have a problem so, why not have a drink?” One led to 2 which led to about 5, in about 2 hours. Not your budlight beer either- the 7.0-9% abv kind. I thought- hmm maybe I do have a slight problem.
So here I am trying for 2 weeks again, wondering if I will reset the clock or make it… and once I hit the two weeks will I feel accomplished? Will I want to drink again? Will I drink again?
still not sure what I’m doing here.
You’ve come to a good place. People here are very supportive and have been in the short time I’ve been here. I would say go for that goal of two weeks. If you feel tempted come on here and there will be someone or something that someone has said that will make you think twice about picking up a beer. Whether you are not sure if you should be here or not, welcome nonetheless and best of luck
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I appreciate your response and your warm welcome. I wonder what will happen once I hit the two weeks. Will I feel like I hit a goal and realize I don’t have a problem- or realize I do? I’m going out of town this weekend and almost feel like I should reset the counter already. My brother in law makes beer and is starting his own brewery I feel like I already know the 2 week goal will be reset this Friday.
I know I will drink again. Just don’t know if it will be by choice or by addiction? Will I get addicted to sobriety and feel heartbroken if I slip or if I chose to partake will I be ashamed? I have major anxiety issues and thinking about it makes me feel panicked .
See this is when I need a drink hahah
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You are very right! Thanks for the comment
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Hi, my name is Joshua. I would first like to start off by saying that I am sorry this world hasn’t been so nice to you and you’ve had to go through more things then many could even imagine.
I also battled with addiction to Crystal Meth though for 3 years until I hit my rock bottom and just got sick of the same ol dance and losing everyone and everything that was dear to me. I had the most beautiful daughter which also was a huge part of my recovery and why I finally said enough was enough.
I have been clean for alost 12 years now and couldn’t be any more proud and grateful for everything I was as well as everything ive become. Being an addict is a terrible thing but I do want you to know that it could also be a great thing (I know that sounds crazy). The reason I say it can also be a great thing is because all of these things that we as addicts have to suffer through only makes us stronger, wiser, better and gives us a chance to touch someone else’s life with just our story.
I never looked back after I finally got clean and I can tell you that having good, honest, loving people who have been through the same or similar things is the best thing for us addicts. Hearing people’s experiences that in the end make whatever it is we were or are going through, seem like a walk in the park really helps to put our stuff into perspective.
I just want you to know that you are loved, strong and a warrior and can’t NOTHING get in the way of you gaining victory over this addiction but you. If you feel like you are having thoughts of reusing, hurting yourself, giving up or anything like that please remember that you have a family here with all of us and shouldn’t be afraid to reach out and ask for help. We all need each other and are unbreakable and unstoppable when we work together.
You should be extremely proud of yourself for making it this far. Don’t even think about your last relapse from thus moment on and just focus on the NOW. Even if you have to keep track hour by hour, min by min or second by second do it. Think of a way you can reward yourself at the end of each week or even each day. Even if that means just taking yourself out to get ice cream or sonething simple like that, it is the simple things that keep us grounded and more focused on the positive.
When I was going through my rehab and being high stages, it seemed like things would NEVER be able to get any better. I even convinced myself somehow that I didn’t even deserve to be happy or have a healthy sober life. As I said, we can be our worst enemies and that’s what you have us for. Just keep it up because you are doing an AMAZING job and before you know it, those 14 days will have turned into 14 years and you will be able to help someone else out like yourself.
Hope this helps even just a little and remember who I am and if you ever need anything, even just to vent, yell, scream, cru or anything I am here. Congrats again on your amazing 2 weeks clean and hope to hear more from your progress and success.
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Meth is more harder to quit then heroin ur really a strong person!!
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My post was lost in the mix today, but anyway. I started drinking in high school. I grew up in a one horse town that revolved around sports. I was terrible at them, but I was an all star on the drinking team. Off to college I went and being out from under my parents thumbs I started going out 3 nights a week with my new found college buddies. Fast forward to today and I’m 33 years old. My drinking has fluctuated alot over the years, but I would say it is at an all time high. I blame it on a million things: a high stress job, depression after the death of both parents before I was age 30, boredom, loneliness…the list goes on. I’m a functional alcoholic. I hold a job and my drinking doesn’t interfere with my day to day life so to speak. I didn’t have a bad upbringing, but alcoholism runs strongly in my family. I frequently come home and put down 1-6 beers a night like it’s normal. One night after a bad day at work I came home and sat in the bathtub and drank an entire bottle of wine. Talk about a nasty headache the next day. I often drink my supper rather than eat. Mind you I live alone with 2 dogs. On the weekends comes the binge drinking. Go out with friends to a game or concert and get black out drunk and remember nothing. What fun is that? I lack self control and the ability to just have one. I recently made a careless decision to drink and drive (which I’ve done more times than I can count) and rolled my vehicle. I walked away with just some bruises. That was my wake up call that I needed to get my shit together. I also have a fatty liver, but some of that is probably related to long term hormone birth control use. I was relieved to read in the article about what happens when you quit drinking that some of the fat in the liver may decrease. I just downloaded this app to keep myself accountable and was excited to see this forum! Thanks for reading and have a great day!
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I have a great career and a happy person. I received a DUI and it was a wake up call for me. I realize that I do have a problem and I can’t just stop drinking whenever I wanted. I am taking time off from drinking to find myself again.
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I’m from Vancouver b.c. I’ve been struggling with addiction for over 20 years. I’ve used every drug you can think of. I’ve slowly kicked every drug addiction including cigarettes. My last one to go is alcohol. I thought after quitting meth and cocaine alcohol would be a breeze. I was sadly mistaken. I have been clean of everything now for 1 day. I’m already bored and struggling to keep myself busy. This is the first place I have come to for support. I hope this works. I feel like this is my last chance.
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Don’t give up, lefty…
Thank you. I’m glad that there are people out there that help each other that are going through similar experiences.
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That’s why this …thing…site…is here. I really feel it’s kept me from scoring today and yesterday. As much as I didn’t come here to get clean…it just might happen anyway thanks to the people’ in here 