My name is Maïka, I’m 37 years old and I live in Belgium. Alcohol has always had a central role in my entire life. My father, aunt and grandfather are or have been alcoholics.
I didn’t do any alcohol or drugs up to the age of 20. I was studying at that time and then started to experiment with drugs. This lasted for about 3 years. I couldn’t cope with the drugs and was really getting paranoid, didn’t come out of the house anymore, in the shop it felt like all the shelves were going to collapse on my head. Eventually I went to see my doctor. I had a few years then with ups and downs.
Then I met my current boyfriend, 6 years ago. He’s a very demanding person and after living on my own for about 10 years before it has been very difficult to adapt to a life living in a same house with somebody. I’ve never felt comfortable in his house. So for the last 3 years (since I moved into his house), I have been drinking way to much, put on loads of weight and started drinking as soon as I got out of my dayjob in the car. By the time I got home most of the time I had drunk at least half a bottle of liquor, Vodka, Whiskey, Pineau, Port, Elexir, whatever was strong enough to make me feel comfortable for the evening.
Last year I decided to cut the drinking on 1 September. On 14 October I was still sober, but really collapsed. The 1.5 month before I had been very busy, trying to catch up with everything I neglected over the past years. It felt as if I lost half of my brain in one minute. I was taken into hospital and stayed in psychiatric emergency for 5 days. After that I could go home with surveillance. I was off work for 3.5 months, going to day clinic 2 days a week.
Since 1 Feb I’m working full-time again. I have bought a house and would like to be able to move to the house sometime next year before the summer. A lot of work to do.
I will be living on my own again, because for me this seems to be the most comfortable situation.
Since January I have had a few relapses and really realize that social drinking is not an option for me.
I have now been sober for 9 full days now and I love this app! It really helps me to get from Wednesday to Wednesday without using the alcohol. I go to AA every week and to be honest think it is really important to keep me alert.
I feel a lot better now without the alcohol and would like to keep it this way. I love this forum and hope we can help each other get through the difficult periods and share our positive experiences.