Good luck with the interview… Your story and mine are very similar. My thoughts are with you.
Hi
I’m Shelley i’m still exploring my relationship with alcohol and decided to give it up for a while as I felt it was becoming a bigger problem. I’ve never really thought of it as an addiction more of a bad relationship. I want to stop drinking for a while and concentrate on me. Its been an up and down year. I won’t go in to detail but I’ve found it really easy to crack open a bottle of wine at home way more than is healthy and sometimes it dictates the path of my life. I want to take back control so lets say its a work in progress
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36yr old mother of 2 an wife. I work full time an drink to much. Day 6 with no booze. Lots of nervous energy.
From age 6-12, I experienced several types of abuse including: physical, sexual, and verbal abuse. As a result, I suffer from severe PTSD and anixety. However I have been working with a specialist therapist for a little over 3 years to help me be able to sleep at night.
My older siblings are addicts and both have just moved their choice of drug to alcohol and the other is on something - not sure what. I grew up where drinking is normalized and a part of every family function. I have only 2 sober cousins, other than that everyone is a severe alcoholic. I never thought I’d fall in the same boat but I feel like my drinking has gotten out of control. I drink everyday and usually don’t remember the last 4 to 5 hours of the night. I wake up late and disoriented for work and my work requires a lot of cognitive work and brain processing. I just woke up today hungover as always and I just said I am very tired of feeling this way. I’ve never had an issue with drinking but thinking to my family where one of my cousins will have seizures if he does not drink. I think back to even my own parents who, when drunk, say the most mean and heart breaking things. Every family function there is alcohol. I live in a city of nothing but alcohol advertisements and bars everywhere. It’s just too convenient and I’m just very tired of waking up hungover and messing up at work. I’m tired of feeling so fatigued all the time, and I’m tired of exacerbating my other health issues through alcohol. I am starting again, and this is a retry of many retries but I feel if I don’t try then that’s what failing truly is - maybe I will surprise myself? 
Cheers to a day 1, and cheers to all of you - you’re beautiful and enough always remember that!
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Ziggy,
Hey…maybe if we manage to stay sober, beat this thing… we can be heroes…
Lady Grinning Soul
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You just put the biggest smile on my face today! Thanks for saying that and referencing “Heroes” - funny I was watching a ddocumentary on Bowie and his first 5 years of his career. He mmentioned his addiction was getting worse and he was putting himself in very dangerous situations and he had to get out of it. Once he did and was sobered up, he wrote heroes. He was surprised in himself that he could continue to write music sober there’s an awesome fact about Heroes and so thrilled you referenced it. Yes, we can beat this and we can definitely be heroes <3 much love and light to you
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Hi. My name is Sandra, and I’m an alcoholic, sober for almost 10 days now. I’d like to say that it’s been easy, but it hasn’t. The only thing going for me is that my withdrawal was minimal.
My husband, whom I’ve spent the last 26+ years of my life with, passed away on October 21, 2016. He died of complications due to chronic alcoholism. For the last 6 months of his life, I had watched his health go downhill. All the while, we were both still drinking. The day before he died, he checked himself out of the hospital because he didn’t want to be transferred to ICU. Less than 24 hours later, I woke up, and he was already gone. He was 45 years old.
Believe me, I know that the liquor store closes in 20 minutes, and I’m a 5 minute drive away, but I have a 15 year old that is counting on me. Drinking isn’t going to make it better, or make me forget. It won’t banish the pain that I feel. It won’t make me feel less lonely. I have to be strong. I have to remind myself that each day, sometimes more than once.
Thank you for listening. If I can do it, have faith that you can, too.
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And …I signed it lady grinning soul!! So glad you enjoyed it. Fall or no, relapse or none let’s keep posting here ok…I joined Oct 13. And I’m just now getting a day or so at a time of clean time. Yay us
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Hey everyone, I’m Cheyenne and 19 years old. I am an alcoholic. I’ve been drinking since the age 14 and I noticed I had developed a problem with it 2 years ago. When it’s presented to me I have to have it and more and more. I started using when I was upset, happy, angry, bored even. Now I have to have a drink every day or I experience mild but nonetheless withdrawals. I have blacked out countless times and done ridiculous and terrible things i dont remember. My last boyfriend hated my drinking and it was one of the deciding factors of him leaving me. I’ve broken the law because of my drinking and gotten in an accident where thankfully no one was hurt but myself. I have now been sober 22 hours, and it will hopefully continue on. Thank you all for reading
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Hello anyone who might be reading this.
My name is Dani and I am an alcoholic. 6 weeks ago I was taken to the hospital in an ambulance after drinking a half bottle of rum on an empty stomach and nearly dying on the bathroom floor passed out in a pile of vomit, ive been told. I dont remember much of that night. I’ve been drunk to the point of making myself throw up so that I can keep drinking and not get that sick again. I’ve been drunk three or more times to the point of throwing up since my hospitalization and usury have a drink or so before I do my homework (I am in college). People have told me that my drinking is concerning to them, but I’ve always thought I could handle it. Last night it had 5 drinks, one with over 6 shots in it. I have a problem and I don’t know who to talk to. I’m 21 and I don’t think my drinking is healthy.
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This forum is awesome , it does help me alot . You all stories , why and how does saves other life . I have posted my story in another topic . I Just wanted to say thank you all.
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Hi
My name is Anne and i’m Dutch
A couple of weeks ago i went to the glasscontainer in town to put in my empty jars,…and bottles. It was a confronting moment.
Since 3 years I know i have a disease that makes me Infertile. In August i had my 6 month’s doctors appointment, i started drinking every day to not feel my emotions.
When i am down, i drink. Not alot, but still it’s my way to switch of. I can stop for a couple of days but when something bad happens at work or i’m just down i drink. I started to secrectly drink…
I made a promess to myself to not drink a drop for a month, in 2 days a will reach my goal😊. Now i feel i have to set my goal further in time. No alcohol during the holidays! In 4 weeks, i lost 3,5 KG and gained energy and a better sleeping rhytme.
Thank you for all your inspiring stories. I stopped just in time. The first 2 weeks were hard, now i dream at night that i fealed en was tempted, when i wake up i know i didn’t and since a long time i’m proud!
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Congratulation and welcome @Ddd1979 in here you will have tons of support . Im glad you made your choice. Taking back your life is awesome. Be the boss in your life. Stay happy and focused. You are the most important in your life .
Hi. I’m Cathi. 41 years old and a mess. Lately, the last few years I guess, drinking has become a problem. Today I called in sick to work, too hung over and absolutely hating myself. Didn’t even manage to get the kids off to school. They love it of course, but I’m ashamed and feel like such a loser. I have a great new job, and I’m worried I’m going to lose it after years of struggling to get here. My twin died 13 years ago and I don’t think I’ve dealt with think that yet maybe. I always feel so awkward and alone and I just don’t feel like I fit in anywhere. And drinking helps me escape my head. But now I black out, don’t remember a thing, no idea who I talked to or what I’ve said and done. I know I need to quit, I WANT to quit, then a couple of days sober I tell myself it’ll be fine, I’ll be able to just stick to a couple glasses of wine. Apparently not. Really hoping tools like this app will help me become someone I like again. Help me be able to hold my head up again.
Hi my name’s Payal. I’m an addict. My substance of choice was meth. My addiction was short lived but I’ve recently completed my program at a rehab succeccfully and being part of the sober community is amazing. I also bumped into this forum recently and I love it. It makese feel like I’m connected to my sober family anwhere and everywhere I go and never have to be alone.
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I’ve lost everything over and over. Jobs, relationships. And I started this app today. Already fell down.
My name is Ashton and alcohol is my substance. I started drinking when I was in college but it really took off when I met my husband. We both drank excessively for years, drinking all day and night on the weekends and heavily after work. I guess we both were trying to numb our pain from our childhoods- we both come from a rough past. We got into pretty major fights when we both drank enough and one night he picked a fight with his brother and my dad. He didn’t remember any of it and woke up in detox. That was the breaking point for him. He swore off alcohol and has been sober for 2 years and 2 months now.
I have been slow to follow.
A recent job change introduced me to a mentor that has challenged me both at work and personally. She’s the closest thing to at mother I have ever had and at 31 years old, I have happily been “adopted” by a loving family. With her encouragement I started seeking counseling for my past issues. Without discussing alcohol with my counselor, I started to realise how far my past issues were reaching into my relationships and actions, and how much I had been using alcohol as a numbing agent as well as a social lubricant. Since I began counseling I haven’t been perfect, but I have made tremendous progress towards sobriety. I had been suppressing so much and keeping myself in a numb bubble, that I missed out on hurt, but also really amazing people. I am in a place where I feel the suckage thoroughly, but I feel the greatness of things where I haven’t before. I am so glad that I found this place to remind myself of the joys of this journey and to find people who will support through struggles. Much love.
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What happened is not your fault. What you do now is choose a. Happiness or b. Revenge. Get with God the rest will fall into place. Dopamine at normal levels will make you feel better. When Dopamine is in your brain for an extended period atextreme levels then your brain gets used to it and becomes normalized at that extreme level. Which then makes every day life seem pointless and painful. It takes about 6 months for your brain to equalize it’s hormones biochemically. But it takes about 4 years for the memory of the pleasure and pain to return to normal. Stick with sobriety and go to meetings. Stay sober and wait for the miracle to happen.
Love you all
SCOTT W
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Hi, my name is Bella& what you described is very MUCH an addiction just like alcohol or drugs. I just turned 40 and I did this behavior in place of “using”. Anthing not to feel. And anything that CHANGES the way you feel is considered a drug. Cutting always removed my pain, emotionallyrics numbed me out. I wood literally crave it, & it got to the pt. where the self-abuse rose to new levels. I did this for 10+YRS &still struggle with it, wen I feel I’ve been ‘bad’.
I don’t kno if anything I’m saying is Helpful, BUT IF I CAN HELP YOU TO HEAR 1 THING•••YOU ARE MORE BEAUTIFUL IN GOD’S EYES THEN YOU COULD EVER KNO!
!! HE sees your heart&struggle&loves you, JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. My struggled lessened when I realized my value through God’s eyes and this took me a long time to grasp the truth but through his spirit I gained to this knowledge.
Keep in touch.
Bella♡
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Hi, my names Kayla ! Im an addict ! Im 18 and I’ve dealt with drugs in the past but my more recent battle is alcohol, its affecting my relationships with my friends and loved ones, I’ve been told the I worry my friends and that I get out of hand. Its also affected my grip on my mental health, I’m Bipolar and I’ve been using substances as self medication but Its only been hurting me, I’m ready to get better !! Im 3 days sober and Im new to this website! for the short amount of time I’ve been here I’ve already felt better and supported
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